What are you waiting for Shane? She wants you… can’t you see it. Do it you pussy… speaking of pussy don’t you want hers? Do it Shane…do it now.

She puts her hand on my chest, trying to keep me away. Her lips are soft, and they taste a little like watermelon. She runs her hand through my hair pulling me closer… her tongue with mine, and I need her. I want her to understand. With everything I am I holding her close… I kiss her slow, wanting to remember this forever. If there is a forever.

Not for you shaney… maybe for her.

She keeps her hand on my face, her body crushing against mine. Her breathe is shallow… hot in the cool of the room. My heart pounding against my chest…she traces her fingers along my chin laying her hand slowly over my heart. She looks so worried, scared when she feels it… I can get lost in these eyes.

“I was scared… I was scared that I would hurt you. That I couldn’t be the person you wanted…the person you deserve.” she’s trembling in my arms, the only other time I can remember her like this was that night. Ha so many things changed then…so many things happened. “It was so stupid… I just couldn’t get past my dad. I wanted to know him…I wanted to make you happy.”

“You thought leaving me would make me happy?” ha I love this look on her face…like I’ve lost my mind. “How would that make me happy Shane?”

She’s got a point there Shane… what the fuck were you thinking? Oh I forgot you don’t think…this is why you’re a fuck up Shane. You don’t think.

Did I lose my mind? Is this really happening? What do I say? What do I do? Why is my ear ringing?

“I told you it was stupid…” these voices, they echo they scream and they whisper…this unrelenting threat of death. “I wanted you then…I want you now… I don’t want to leave you.”

We’re here Shane… you can silence us… but you can’t get rid of us. We watch, we wait… we know. We know when you’ll die; we know where you’ll die. Does that scare you?