“I know…you know I love you too right?” she runs her hand across my stomach, running her finger under my shirt. Oh the game she plays…she is my girl.

I nod, and as she gets into the car… the pressure builds. Will it be a bang or a whimper? It takes all my strength to get the door open…does she notice? Just breathe, just move just do whatever you can to keep going…to stay with her.

You want to live now Shane? Did you change your mind? Do you want to fight to live? For another month? Another hour…another day. You’ve had two months with her Shane… we gave you time.

Not enough time…I want more please one more night. The voices whisper continuously… and it sounds like there shouting. It sounds so strange…so wrong, so fucked up. The night sky is pitch black… it moves in waves. The sound of the engine…the feel of her hand on mine.

Tick tock…the clock is running out. What’ll happen when it stops? Why don’t we find out?

She turns on the radio… talking away about her last gig. The lights of the cars around us dance before my eyes. They lick the night sky like flames that come from the city. The city is on fire… and all I can do is watch, all I can do is waiting.Watch it burn, with her next you. Time to say good bye Shane…I believe your ride is on your left.

I look at her once more…her hairs falling in waves down her back. Her shirt showing the perfect amount of skin… her finger tapping to the music and the light turns red. The world pauses and I can’t breathe… I’ve been alive for 28 years 6 months 18 days 10 hours and 42 minutes. forget the seconds.

The light turns green and I watch as time speeds up, as she smiles in the flames. The white light that covers her, engulfs her…she is my angel. My saviour and my angel of death…I find this all very ironic.

2 months, 11 days, 13 hours and 21 minutes… plus whatever lies beyond. We told you we’d take her from you… we just never told you that we’d give her back.

The voice fades away as the sound of crunching metal fills the air. As the shattering of glass mimics their broken voices. As she calls my name one more time… and the flames dance around us. Watch the city burn…watch as it all fades to black. No more thoughts, more pain…just her smile. Just her hand in mine and this voice that screams in delight.

“Shane,” it’s nothing like I thought it would be. “Carmen…what took you guys so long.”