“you still love me?” I asked caught off guard

“how could I not? Spence…” she said facing me “…I miss everything about you ok? I miss waking up next to you in the morning and I miss holding you in my arms when you’re falling asleep…” she started “…I miss kissing you, and it’s not even about the amazing sex, but I just miss talking to you and being with you on that level…I even miss your horrible food, no offence…” she said making me laugh

“non taken” I told her making her smile too

“I miss how annoying you get during movies when you either know every line or you ask questions that I can’t answer…Spencer I would hold a radio over my head outside your window, get you a hundred red roses everyday and come to terms with the fact you can beat me at guitar hero if that will make you be with me…” she compromised and I laughed at the last few things she said

“Ashley…you have a fiancée, and she’s great and gorgeous…she’s really the type of girl anyone should want to be with and I’m not…” I explained to her

“but that’s why I want to be with you…everything with Brooke has been planned out…my whole life is in a planner written down, and it wasn’t like that with you…I basically already know the next five years of my life and I don’t want to know that…I miss everything being one day at a time with you…”

“you can’t hurt Brooke, Ashley…” I told her shaking my head

“I don’t want to hurt Brooke, but Spencer if I don’t kiss you right now I don’t know what I’ll do…” she said looking directly into my eyes as she leaned over on the couch and I leaned in too as our lips met in a long awaited two months kiss…before I knew it clothes were on the floor and Ashley and I were together again, but not in the committed way…more like in bed, sweating together kind of way.

About two hours later we were lying in my bed kissing, except now the kisses were more spread apart with talking in between…

“can I tell you something that I didn’t plan on telling you?” I asked her