“I’m sorry, I am so sorry you had to deal with that bitch Jodie on your own, you have to believe me when I tell you I was going to talk to you about her,I was going to tell you I had run into her at Catherine’s Gallery I just got scared.”

“Scared of what?” Tina paused

Bette took a deep breath

“I didn’t want you to know how weak I was when I was with her and I didn’t want you to ever find out what I became without her”

“I knew Jodie was being unfaithful I knew to her I was just a conquest someone everybody wanted and she had. I let her treat me like shit I was so, no I thought I was in love with her I let her walk all over me, everyone warned me about her but I was so stubborn so sure she loved me the way I thought I loved her.  When she left me I felt useless I felt I had driven another person away, I felt like a child again I felt empty and alone just like when I was a little girl and my mom left.  I cried back then and daddy called me weak, I went home after Jodie left me and daddy called me weak, I vowed I would never let anyone make me feel empty or alone again and that nobody would ever call me weak again.  I became a lot like Jodie when I returned to college I slept around a lot, I used people for my benefit my own enjoyment until I started the magazine then the magazine used so much of my time it filled the void in me temporarily I dedicated all of my time to my work, worked myself to a point of exhaustion, until you, you’ve changed me for the better I love you so much, you have to believe me.”

“What about Catherine?” Tina asked

“Catherine and I, we used each other, we knew the terms of our relationship from the start,  we had a lot in common we enjoyed each other’s company we knew it wasn’t a long term relationship we’re both to alpha, too much alike. I care about her a lot, we became friends, very good friends”