It was one of those lazy weekend afternoons that I loved so much; where I could dress in sweats and a tank top and lazying around with my favourite girl. It’s only been 2 months but being with Tina is where I want to be. I’ve never felt like this before, it’s like all my thoughts are always about Tina or involve Tina in some way. It’s crazy, two months ago, I was getting some every night, I was living the life of a grade A player, but today, no today I was a mess. I was falling all over Tina. If she told me to do something, I would do it without hesitation. When I looked at her my heart would literally hurt, like I was yearning for something, a kiss; anything. When we were together I would always have my hands on her, on her thighs, her arms, in her hair, messaging her feet, touching her neck, anywhere I could get my hands.

I had it bad, but worst of all, I hated when we weren’t together. When we weren’t together it felt like my heart was breaking into a million pieces, my mind fogged with Tina and it seemed there was no point of thinking of anything else. Sleeping didn’t get me any escape either because my dreams were filled with her. One time we didn’t see each other for a whole weekend because I had to go to New York, it seemed to be the hardest thing I have ever done; to be away from my Tina felt like torture. I didn’t know what was going on with me, it started to scare me how easily I took to Tina, how easily I could trust her. Things I never told anyone before seemed to fly out of my mouth so easily when I was with Tina.

We were sitting in front of Tina’s couch where I had my back to the couch and Tina was sitting between my legs. A pillow lay behind my back to make it more comfortable. We were eating vanilla ice cream; I had already finished my bowl and was just holding Tina waiting for her to finish hers. My chin was resting on Tina’s shoulder and my arms wrapped around her waist. She was wearing black sweats and a white tank while I was wearing a pair of her sweats and a tee shirt I brought from home. A movie was playing but honestly I couldn’t tell you which one but Tina was really into it. All around me was Tina. I could smell her sweet scent, her shampoo. From time to time I would kiss the skin of her neck, but once I moved to that one spot I knew got to her every time, her breathing increased and her eyes fluttered; she placed her bowl next to us on the floor and laid her head back on my shoulder to give me better access.