“Just hold me, please? I don’t want to say goodbye, I…. I can’t do it Hannah, please?”

It was at that point that Hannah knew she was lost, few people could pinpoint the moment they knew they were truly in love with someone, but for Hannah this was it.  This exact moment in time, hearing Spencer’s small voice, seeing her eyes so full of pain, knowing that she would do anything to make that go away, even if it meant letting her go and walking away. It was then that she had to try and find the words for the hardest moment in her life….

“You have to babe, we both know that your heart belongs to someone else.  You have to go back…. you have to back and fight for the woman you love.  Don’t let her get away without a fight because if you do, you will regret it for the rest of your life.  There will never be another hour, another minute, another second where you won’t think what if? Don’t do that to yourself Spencer, please? If…. if you take anything away from us being together it should be the fact that you know who you want to be with. Most people spend their whole lives searching for that Spencer, don’t let it get away”

My heart is breaking, with each word, each whisper, each breath…. Please Spencer, don’t make this any harder, I couldn’t bare it?!

“Kiss me?”

Don’t ask me to do that, anything but that? If only it were my lips you wanted to feel, if only it was my heart you wanted to cherish….

“I don’t think that’s a good idea Spencer”

Spencer slowly raised her tear stained face up to look at Hannah and saw something she hoped she’d never see again…. she saw her own reflection, she saw the pain she felt that night that her world crumbled. Hannah loved her and she had broken her heart….

“H, I want this…. I want you!” She said as she slowly moved herself closer to whisper in her ear, Spencer’s hands subtly began to move up Hannah’s back

“This is our last night together, I don’t want to think about HER…. I want to think about YOU, I want to hold you, to kiss you, to touch you…. I want to feel again, I want the pain to stop”