But as I turn to look at Spencer, I know that’s exactly what the problem is, I have a boyfriend. Maybe I shouldn’t have looked at Spencer at this point though because when I do my heart sinks to my arse and I feel dizzy. She’s sitting next to some guy, he’s a friend of a friend that I’ve met a few times which is the only reason I don’t go over there and rearrange his face, and they’re all over each other, his tongue looks like it’s so far down her throat I’m surprised she hasn’t choked. I rush my way through the crowds and rush to the toilet and lock myself in a cubicle, and I let everything out. I think I literally spewed my guts up. I guess my gag reflex isn’t what I thought it was.

I stay in the toilet for a while, glad that it was empty. I rinse out my mouth and wipe it with tissue as a silent tear rolls down my cheek. It was then that it clicked. I know exactly what she’s doing to me. The touches, the looks, the tingles, the soft smiles, the kisses, the jealousy, the smirks, the questions, the confusion, the butterflies, the ache in my chest when I see her with someone else. I am absolutely in love with Spencer Carlin. Then sobs wrack my body and I give in and cry in solitude in the middle of this crowded party.

As I re-emerge from the toilet Jay walks straight up to me and pulls me into a hug, I don’t know how she knows something is wrong, but she does, maybe my puffy eyes are a give away, maybe it all clicked for her too. I don’t let myself get lost in the hug for fear of crying again; instead I pull away and smile at Jay then head over to get another drink. As I’m drinking my very strong whatever it is I asked for I glance over at Spencer, to see how she’s doing, and manage to catch the most glorious sight of her breaking away from another kiss with the ape and then proceeding to throw up all over the table in front of them. I’m not one to take joy in another’s misery, but that shit was funny! She kissed him, and then up chucked a whole lot of crap. I get over the funniness of it and go to Spencer to see how she’s feeling. She’s just sitting there staring into space and I see ape boy trying to lay some more moves on her. Is he fucking serious?