“uh I’ll just have a cosmopolitan” I told her

“uh I’ll have a mint mohito” Spencer told her

“okay I’ll have those right out” the waitress told us walking away then I sat back in my chair

“you look good” I told Spencer

“you do too” she told me

“so how’s this…film making thing going?” I asked her

“so much work, but it’s what I want to do” she replied “what about music? How’s that going?”

“it’s been going great lately…I mean I open up for paramore and suddenly all my stuff is selling. I just don’t know if I’m ready for my career to take off like that” I told her

“why not?”

“I travel enough…I mean I miss being home sometimes”

“so I’m guessing there’s no girlfriend in your life?” she asked me

“uh no…I just don’t have time” I told her “and it sucks, because on those long nights when we’re driving I have no one to talk to, or someone to call just to hear their voice” I explained “what about you? Did you come out yet?”

“uh no” she told me simply

“so what’s the deal with that? Do you still like girls or are you back to guys?”

“I’m too involved with work” she told me

“that’s a load of crap…I work all the time and I can tell you that I’m still gay”

“Ashley I haven’t dated anyone since…” she started then she stopped herself

“since when?” I asked her

“since you” she told me

“are you kidding?” I asked and she shook her head “you haven’t slept with anyone?”

“I didn’t say that” she said “I told you I haven’t dated anyone”

“so who have you slept with?” I asked her and she didn’t say anything “oh come on, you used to tell me all this stuff!” I told her “fine, guys or girls?”

“girls…” she told me

“so Spencer Carlin is still a lesbian” I replied

“can you oh I don’t know…shut up about it”

“why is it such a bad thing?” I asked her “isn’t this what you’re documentary is about?” I added

We ate dinner, and finally she started opening up. We went walking around the streets of Los Angeles for a little bit together still catching up and I think that’s when it clicked…I was still there for her. “there’s the Spencer Carlin I knew!” I exclaimed as she started cracking jokes and being all sarcastic again then she laughed and then laced her fingers with mine and I smiled at her “hey I’m sorry about Natalie…” I told her