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Bitter Endings, Sweet Beginnings: Part Two
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Dana wasn’t in love with Lara.
She had never been in love with Lara and she doubted that she would ever be in love with her. No, that was a lie. Dana knew she would never be in love with Lara. At least, not any time soon and that was because of the fact she was still in love with Alice. Funny, wasn’t it?
She didn’t love Lara but she was with Lara and she loved Alice but she wasn’t with Alice. Somehow that didn’t seem right but that was the way things were and that was the way things had to be because Dana knew something else. She knew that she wasn’t good for Alice.
Ironically it was Dana knowing things or rather, her natural assumption of knowing things, that created all of their problems. Because she thought she knew everything about Alice. They had been close for so many years, how could she not? And in a sense, she did know everything about Alice. But she knew everything about her as a friend. Dana knew nothing about Alice as a girlfriend and it was that seemingly minor difference that made their romance to shatter into a million sharp and jagged little pieces.
Their break was so severe and dangerous that Dana often wondered if it could ever be repaired. She didn’t like to dwell on that though. It was painful enough simply not being with Alice but imagining never being close to her again? That their friendship was gone and would never return? That she would not only lose the woman she loved but her closest friend in the world thanks to her own personal failures?
It made Dana almost wish she was dead.
Not that she was suicidal or anything like that. No, Dana just sometimes wished for the void it would create. No happiness, no sadness, no ecstasy, no pain, no anything. Just oblivion and lately, oblivion was looking better and better.
What happened to their love was a slow lingering death but to Dana it felt as if it happened overnight. One day they were in love and happy, the next they were in love and miserable. Dana knew Alice loved her still and that was the problem. The blonde shouldn’t love her, not after everything she had done.
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so ok – you were totally right – i loved dana’s pov and it totally makes sense and you just rock for the way you make me still love her even though she broke Alice’s heart.
And again, you were right, Jenny is the perfect friend for Alice and Helena and her ‘weirdness’ fits perfectly and is something endearing in this, not off putting as it is on the show.
And finally – the comfort that alice and helena find in their shared experiences, insecurities and needs was just perfect! Loved it – but then again, knew I would! Great job!!!
Bagpuss Rocks I and my friends were bought up on him. Best British kids tv show ever!! Bring bagpuss to the world!
Hey now… lol. I’ve got nothing against Bagpuss! The show was cool but I’m mildly freaked out by it. Then again, I’m mildly freaked out by lawn gnomes too. Brrr. Lawn gnomes. Anyway, Helena and Jenny like Bagpuss. They just find it somewhat disturbing, much like me. =P
You’re good.. you’re good. You actually MAKE me like Helena… ;)
Positively loving this, anyone who takes the time to properly write Helena *and* who writes her so damn well gets heaps of gold stars in my book. =) And I’m even picking up on the joys of Helacious =D Squeee
This is great! It’s nice seeing Helena portrayed as someone who does actually have a good side! I’m enjoying it very muchly
Thank You! For reasons in no particular order:
1. For writing Jenny in a way that isn’t about her “bad” weirdss. For actually writing her as someone who underneath all the complexities i still someone who can be kind, and defintely someone can see Alice having a friendsip with.
2. For Dana’s pov–I danish shipper at heart and will be, damn all season 3 spoilers and what not, and even though this is helacious story at heart, there are still those undercurrents of Danish, which will always be true for me, no matter what happens with them.
3. For writing helacious in such a way that even I, as a self proclaimed Danisher, can enjoy and even root for. I can only hope (perhaps foolishly)that the writers of TLW will do as much justice.
You are by far my favorite Fan Fic writer on this board–effortlessly weaving stories together that explore connection, love and all the good stuff in between.
I loved this and I’m a little upset that you got four stars considering some of the crap on this board that gets five stars. Dumb fuckers.
Anyway. I already told you what I liked, but I think my favourite parts were getting into Helena’s background and in her head, particularly with her father and the issues she has with her mother and the thing about her running. Ha! I always got lost running cross-country and as I told you, getting lost 13 times is nothing to me because I got lost a lot more times than that. People totally do get lost! And how cute was it that Helena was all fixated and upset that she placed fourth after going a mile and half out of her way? Priceless and so her because she would totally demand so much of herself even at age 15.
And ohh, that last part with the phone call and the dinner arrangements and everything? God.
You’re killing me with Helacious cuteness!
great as always
Not content with making us love Helacious, now you’re going to make me like Jenny! This is a great chapter. The insight into Dana: the scene where she watched Alice in the Planet was just painful. I loved the scene at the end when Alice called Helena. Great mix of tension and humour. And, finally, speaking as someone from the UK: don’t knock Bagpuss! (OK, it was weird, what can I say).