Aiden: “Hey, did you still want to go out tonight, cause I’m beat?” He lets out a yawn and I kick myself for not getting a single.

Spencer: “No, Spencer’s coming over. She’s gonna crash here tonight!” His grin is huge and he looks at me with excitement.

Aiden: “Dude, that’s awesome!” Then his face drops. “So, I guess you want me to leave?” He looks beat. He had an early class and back to back practices tonight. I really want to be ‘selfish Ashley’ and demand that he gets out. But I keep flashing back to him in all black risking his basketball scholarship just so that I could find out if Spencer passed out once. He’s a good friend and I’ve already promised myself to take things slow with Spencer, so really it might be a good thing if he’s here. Kind of like a chaperon.

After finding out from Veronica that Spencer had never had sex with a girl, I mentally kicked myself for almost letting that night be her first. But even if it wouldn’t have been her first time I still wanted our first time to be special. This thing between me and Spencer is years in the making, it can’t go down like that. Oh God, just has
long as it goes down. Or she does, or I do, I don’t care! But although the connection is ridiculous between us, I want her to know that my feelings for her are real.

I want to take her out on dates and hold her hand under the table when we eat dinner in the cafe. I want to lie on a grassy knoll with her as she goes over her literature homework and I pretend to study as I stare at her breasts and then we’d skip through a field of daisies hand in hand and recite epic love poems to one another!

In short, I don’t want to mess this up. I want to hit every step and if that means long hours of ‘Ashley time,’ then so be it.

Ashley: “No, Aiden. Of course you can stay. It’s your room too.” He looks relieved as he changes for bed. He climbs up to his bunk and turns on the TV. Just then there’s a soft knock on my door and I try to keep my huge grin under-wraps as I open the door for Spencer.