“Thank you. When can I see her?”

“I can sneak you in, but only for a moment.” She said with sympathy.

I smiled warmly at her and then followed her. 

I got to Spencer’s room; I gasped and turned away.

‘Be strong, you have to now. Everything else needs to be forgotten’ I told myself. I went by her bedside, she was so fragile and still. My hand reached hers and I pulled it in for a kiss.

“Spencer I’m going to make this right.” I whispered gentle in her ear.

“I have to leave now but I will be back, I promise.” I told her sincerely.

I kissed her forehead and turned to go.

I called for a taxi since I had no other way to get home.

The taxi came and I hopped in.

“Where to?” He asked.

“I’ll give you directions, is that okay?”

“Sure, no problem.” He quickly said.

About twenty minutes we were at the destination. I paid and got out of the taxi.

Here goes…

I knocked on the door. I waited and knocked again.

“Ashley what are you doing here?”

“You know why, you stupid fuck.” I seethed

I let the anger course through my body. I wanted him to pay like Spencer did.

I punched him with everything I had left; he stumbled back. He came towards me and punched me back in the face. My lip was spilt and I could taste the blood rush into my mouth.

Fuck that hurt.

“Do you fucking know how much pain you caused me? No, well I’ll show you!?”

“Get the fuck off my property, you fucking dyke.” He shouted.

“Hey you want to know something, that fucking freak deserved everything she got. She’s a disgrace. Her parents would be so fucking ashamed of her, if they saw what I did.” He laughed. His laugh was purely evil.

That was fucking it, he hit my last nerve.

 I walked over and punched him square in the mouth.

 My ticker just went off; boom. The adrenaline coursed through my veins. I punched him in the stomach causing him to double over. I got on more hit in, a right hook. He spat the blood at me and shook his head.

“You fucking bitch!” He yelled

I went to get in another hit but he grabbed my hand and quickly retaliated.  He sucker punched me in the face. My vision was blurry and caused me to stumble off the porch. He came at me, but noticed the neighbors watching and retreated back into the house.

I laughed and spit the blood from my mouth towards him.

“Why’d you stop? Do you have a problem with an audience Stevie Boy?” I sarcastic said.

“Are you afraid that your dirty little secret might slip out and ruin your good name?” I laughed

“You little bitch, you wouldn’t?” He questioned.

“Try me and fucking find out, I’m going to make your life a fucking nightmare.” I leered at him and turned to leave.

“Oh, one more thing, see you in hell!”

I finally got to my house and went to bed. My face hurt like a mother, but somehow I fell asleep.

———————

“Ashley why the hell did you do that, he could have killed you?” She asked.

“What hell is going on here? I don’t understand” I asked.

“Don’t be so fucking dense and answer the question.” She said

“Why the hell did you do confront Steven?” She demanded

“Because I had to!?” I spat back at her.

“Damn it Ashley, you can’t end up like me. Fuck I don’t understand you sometimes.”

Her words were like knives, they cut me deeper than anything before. I clinched my teeth before I responded back to her.

“When you came to my house like that, it tore me apart because I know I did that to you. I may not of been the abuser but I was the reason you were beaten almost to death. If I lose you, there’s nothing left for me, do you realize that?” I cried out.

She nodded and left.

I couldn’t handle it anymore, I cried even harder. What was happening to me?