I’ll hang from your lips,

God only if everyone know how freaked out I was going there and playing, the people that knew the best would of questioned why I was freaking out about some girl, although my brothers had questioned who had inspired me to start writing songs again I just ignored them though. Little did they know it was one Ashley Davies that had inspired me again, she had become my incognito muse. SPENCER CARLIN once again never freaked out over a girl. But this girl pisses me off at the same time. I finally arrive at the house, after texting Kyla she had met me out side to take me to the back, HOLY shit this place was huge. So she is going on a mile a minute about something or another but I was distracted my her sister from the Corner of my Eye I saw her with him her littler parrot of jock strap of a boy friend.  The last thing I hear Ky say was “Go ahead and set up with the rest of the band, I have to talk to my sister so we can get this party started “… Really Kyla should lay off the red bull and pixi stix she is one hyper girl.

Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above.

From where I was setting I saw Kyla animatedly talking to Ashley and I see Ashley’s eyes widen and her mouth open , I guess Kyla finally told her I was part of Rebel Yell, Which explains why she went over to Aiden and just basically shoved her tongue down his throat. That set me off for some reason whether it was jealousy or angry it set me off and what DO I DO, I get even I wanted to piss the queen b  off , so I turned to the gang and asked if they knew how to play the Joan Jett song “ Bad Reputation”. I wanted to show Ashley that if she wanted to give me a Bad Reputation, she can’t so I we opened the show with that song , the first song I ever played in L.A. and boy this crowd at the party loved it.  I loved it, because I feel most like whom I am when I am up on stage doing what I love the most, singing and playing my guitar. The whole time while we were playing Ashley was watching me from the right side of the stage, I felt it, felt her eyes on me. Watching every single movement on stage. Then after that song, we went on playing one of Ashley’s songs which is one of her favorite songs. According to Kyla so the other day when I heard that we learned it because she likes it and I wanted to do something for her that was awesome. I wanted to basically sing to her just her and sing her favorite song for her. So when I announced that we were going to sing one of our gracious hostess’s fave song, I winked at her and she was licking her lips because by that time my voice was getting raspy which added to the way I was looking at her god she did look fucking amazing and no BEAUTIFUL she was just so beautiful. I knew then that maybe just maybe I had fallen for this girl who was not available and most certainly not gay and most certainly most likely hated me.