Do you ever wonder what exactly you did to deserve such a fucked up life? I mean seriously, I’m sixteen, its not like I’ve had that much time to do something so wrong for god to be like. ” hey watch what I’m going to throw at her now, oh yea that chick is going down”. Honestly its at these times I wonder if there really is a god. I mean come on, how much shit could he put one girl through. There is one thing and only one thing that snaps me out of those thoughts…..a beautiful brunette with a contagious smile that seems to make my life complete. I don’t think I would believe in god anymore if he hadn’t have given me her, the one I can cling to for dear life as my world comes crumbling down before me. You know…. like rigt now…..



Present



“oh god…no…no..this is to much.


“spence, I know…

Tears are streaming down all three girls cheeks. Ashley rushes to hold Spencer as she strokes her back lovingly trying to calm her.


“shh..shh baby I got you. Shh sweetheart its okay”


Spencer turned towards her mother with sorrow and hurt in her eyes and found the same thing looking back at her.


“mom…If….if he did that to you….how could you let him do this to me too? She said through choked sobs.


“spence, I…I…it had been happening ever since I can remember, and I don’t know, I guess it just seemed like it was normal, like that was suppose to happen ya know? She said while looking at the floor and crying.” I mean when you told me that night on Christmas, I didn’t want to believe that he would actually move on to my baby girl, so I forced myself to believe that you must be lieing, because if you weren’t, then my life actually happened and it wasn’t some sick, demented nightmare….it was real.




“mom….I just…I feel so overwhelmed with all of this….but mom, it is real, he did do this……to both of us..its not a nightmare, its our life!!


“I know that now spence, I see the damage that has been done to you, not only from him but from me too. I am so sorry spence…I wish I could fix everything bi I can’t! I wish these words could make everything better, but they won’t. All I can say is at least that bastard will get what he deserves in hell….i just wish I could have stoped him sooner….


She says that last sentence under her breath….little did she know, Ashley heard her…


Ashleys thoughts….


Oh my god….great, that’s all that Spencer needs… Should I tell her? I wish I could make everything better…she can’t lose her mother…not after everthing that’s happened. I know what I have to do….I just hope she understands…




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