He grabbed my arm and I jerked away in awe. “No!”

“Ashley…please?” he begged.

“Aiden…I have nothing to say to you! You messed things up big between me and Spencer and now…now…I don’t know what I’m going to do!”

He looked at me like I was on drugs or something. He’s hurt.

“Aiden” I took a step to him and he backed off.

“Tell me…what was up with all the…the flirting and wanting to be around me huh? If you had no feelings for me why didn’t you tell me that in the first place!? Why didn’t you just say Spencer!?”

He’s right. Why didn’t I? I knew that was going to be thrown at me…but by Aiden?

“Because…you caught me off guard…I mean what the hell was I suppose to say? I told you several times that you were just family to me! That I do love you, but only as a brother!” I could feel my face start to fluster as he actually got me with those questions. It scared me actually. How was I to face Spencer…when I could barely handle the one person who I was suppose to be certain of the words I was going to yell at him. “Why did you keep pushing this?”

“I…guess…I honestly still wished there was something there and I felt it…okay so I was wrong about what I felt…but…things just don’t make sense to me Ashley…one day you want me…the other Spencer…I mean who and what the hell do you want?!”

Dammit why does he have to be right? I lowered my head at the truth that was just yelled at me.

I want Spencer. Why is that so hard to say? Why can’t I say it? What’s stopping me?

“I want Spencer” I muttered, gently as I softly tear at the thought of losing her forever.

He looked at me in disbelief of what I just said. I want Spencer… I do…I love her.

“Ashley…we…we were going to have a baby…” he stood close to me, facing me, “don’t you remember that?” my eyes started to swell, “what would you have done…if we did have the baby?!”