The first few tentative steps towards home, that’s how I put it, right?

Tentative my ass!

Tentative, Brookie dearest, would have been to send a postcard or two to Tree Hill. Tentative would have been maybe phoning up Haley or Mouth and testing the water first.

This? This getting on a plane at six in the morning with a hastily packed bag?

That’s leaps and bounds like Superman would give. Difference being that Superman is indestructible, while I’m very much human and breakable. We do both look very good in blue though, don’t you think?

Anyway, the point I’m trying to make is that this could blow up in my face, big time. This could lead to pain and tears and one very broken heart. Thing is, it could also lead to the one thing I’ve been lacking in my life for the last four years.

Happiness.

So here I am, sitting on a plane listening to a pilot announcing we’re about to take off and wondering when I can order a drink. Thinking in the back of my mind that being on this plane despite my fear is the first brave thing I’ve done in ages and it feels good. It feels liberating and dangerous and just a little exhilarating, a mixture of feelings that I thrived on when I was a girl. When I was Brooke Davis, head cheerleader. When I was seventeen and unknowingly in love with my best friend.

I’m imagining the frown on Victoria’s face when she realizes I’m missing, enjoying the fact that when she frowns she actually looks her age. I wonder how long it’ll take her to realize where I am? I mean I booked the tickets myself, paid with my personal credit card and everything, but the woman has Satan and everyone else by the balls, so I’m guessing she’ll find me eventually.

That just means I’ll have to use whatever time I have wisely. Not the easiest thing in the world when you’re Brooke Davis. I mean how many times have my name and the word wise been used in the same sentence? Hmm…don’t even answer that, the answer is just too damn depressing.

Now where’s that flight attendant with the drinks cart? Don’t these people know that I’m in desperate need of some Vodka right now?