(3 hours after i broke ashley’s heart)

paula:spencer why did you do that for

 spencer:i got caught up in the moment me and johnica were talking she ask me how did you know ashley is the one then i said maybe she’s not and that they are other opitions for me and i kissed her

my family hated me for it and i dont blame them so after highschool i left LA for good and johnica followed me*takes a gulp of wiskey*

"When we make choices we gotta live with them"

"I heard you found a real good man and you marryed him"

"I wonder if sometimes i cross your mind"

"where would we be today"

"if i never drove the car away"

but when i heard that you married ethan and that arthur walk you down the asle

i died inside and thats how im feeling now just a empty shell of a girl that has lost everthing becouse of one mistake

johnica:spence are you ok i think your starting to scare me

 spencer:i cant take it anymore

johnica:you still love ashley dont you

spencer:wha

johnica:spencer ive noticed you for the last 3 years ive seen you drink yourself to oblvion all becouse you regreat breaking up with ashley spence you know i love but im not inlove with you anymore i havent been for a while

 spencer:johnica…i

johnica:spence i know but right now we need to get you help

 spencer:i dont need help

johnica:your drinking more and more your alway said hell spence i havent seen you smile in 3 years and im scared your going to hurt youself so i did some research and i found a Dr.dennison she’s is a specialist in depression and suicide i think she will help you also it’s in La

spencer:im not going i refuse to go back there

 johnica:your going to die spence if you dont le this deamons out of you they will kill you

spencer:what her name

 jonica:kayla dennison and ive already got you an appointment

spencer:are you stupid now way in hell im going to see kayla she’s ashley’s half sister

johnica:oh i diddnt know that

spencer:yes you did and thats what you set me up with a appointment with her

johnica:ok fine thats why i did it but spence i did it for you it’s been 6 years you need closeure

spencer stays silent

johnica:please spence im begging you get help

spencer:fine

Don’t think i dont think about it

Don’t think i dont have regrets

Don’t think you dont get to me

Between the work and the hurt and the wiskey

Dont think i dont wonder ’bout

Could’ve been should’ve been all work out

i know what i felt and i know what i said

But dont think i dont think about it