Saying I flipped out is an understatement. My head was swirling with thoughts as I lost my all ability to stay up. So I fell on her floor totally freaking out. I was hyperventilating and rocking back and forth.

She stood there watching me. she didn’t try and come over she didn’t try and comfort me. she just stood there staring like she always does.

I finally heard her sigh over my heavy breathing and she knelt down and cupped my face making me look at her.

She was very blurry over my tears.

I don’t even know why I’m crying. This is what I wanted. I wanted to be human again. To be able to feel. But it just seems wrong…

“Ashley?” the door opens and glen pears his head in to see me crying. He rushes over me and pushes Spencer away. “What the hell did you do to her?”

I look at Spencer as Glen cups my face with one hand and wipes away falling tears.

All of this is too much. I need to leave, but I need to find out about Spencer.

“Ashley… you still can do things….” Spencer looked at glen and back to me.

She’s right I can still fly. So….

What did I do? Jedi mind trick bitch

He falls over with his mouth open.

“I don’t understand..” I squeak out. Spencer comes closer to me and cups my face again.

“I had to make you human Ashley… they did something to you and I didn’t know how to fix it.” she kisses away another tear that betrayed me.

“You still have your grace.” She whispers.

“But… I’m not an angel anymore.”

“Technically no. you’re just a blessed human.”

“Can I get it back? Can I become an angel again?” dude I can’t believe I’m asking that.

Her eyes become cloudy as tears starts pouring down her eyes. “No.” I gasp. “I can’t, turn you back.” I start crying harder.

I should be fucking happy! I don’t have to be a corruptor anymore. I don’t have to pretend to be anyone except myself.

….

Big problemo. I don’t remember who I really am anymore. Fuck man. I’ve been pretending for so many freaking years.

“Ashley… I think I did this for my own selfish reasons.” She pulled me so tightly into her. “I’m so sorry.” She kept on whispering it in my ear. “I’m so sorry Ashley. Please forgive me.”