I am literally going crazy. I feel like pulling my hair out. it has been a motherfucking 2 days and i haven’t heard from her. NOTHING, ZIP, ZILCH, NADA. No text messages, no phone calls, no emails just a whole bunch of nothing and its driving me up my expensively detailed walls. I mean yes i did not think that after i told her what had happened that she would just welcome me with open arms. I knew goddamn well it would not be that easy but i thought with 2 days to cool down she would at least call me and tell me ‘bitch you broke my heart its over’ or ‘baby you screwed me over but i want to try to work things out.’ No, instead she chooses to let my sanity deteriorate with me asking the nagging question whether she was gonna stay or she was gonna go. I’m laying on my bed staring at the ceiling and suddenly my phone vibrates. I sit up straight at stare at it for point two seconds then tell myself ‘pick it up you flippin’ moron.’ so i comply and grab my phone off of my dresser i check the number and…IT AINT HER!!!!!

it’s Aiden and i really do not feel like talking to him or more correctly him talk me to death about the bitch monster from hell madison. So i put my phone in my pocket, grab my keys and proceed to go to spencer’s house. If She won’t come to me then I’ll go to her. I drive the 15 minutes to her house and the 15 minutes suddenly turned into 5 minutes and by the time i realized i was already at her house. i took a deep breath and prepared what i was going to say…’baby i know i was wrong’ no that sounds too cliche i say to myself and turn the engine off. I pull my keys from the ignition and get out of the car. I walk up her walk way and stand in front of the door and as if on cue the question come arunning back into my head. Thinking…i do not recommend it…for anyone.’what if this is more serious than i thought?’ ‘what if i really hurt her?’ ‘what if she gives up and leaves?’ ‘what would i do without her?’ Yes these are all the questions that came flooding back and as i reached my hand up to knock on the door it quickly swings open and its her mother…Could this week get any worse.