“I don’t know it just happened I think it was a mix of the way we were being treated at school and the way your mom was keeping us apart. I felt alone and Kate made me feel like I belonged there was no one to say it was wrong no one to make me fell like shit!” She said this like she had it all figured out maybe it was a speech once.

I couldn’t help but think of the way she said her name Kate like it was a royal thing like she didn’t think that it would hurt me hearing her say that name wondering if she said it that way in bed. I knew this was a bad idea talking about this I still had to many anger issues with it.

“So I made you feel worthless is that what you’re saying…”

“NO” she interrupted me

“Ok that is what you just said, you needed comfort and I wasn’t there so you slept with someone else ok I just don’t get that you left I never did I have been here through all of it all of our fight to be happy and together, and what you were the one that was hurting me the most!”

“Spencer I never meant to hurt you and I’ve regretted it every day since…”

“You’ve been sleeping with her Ashley how much regret do you have, it’s called loyalty Ashley that’s what your suppose to be to the one you love!” I said interrupting her

“I know and I have now way of proving to you how much I do love you other then not leaving your side and making you see that I want you and only you!” she said grabbing my hand with hers softly rubbing her fingers along my knuckles.

“But you don’t know what you want, I see you holding her so tell me why would you be doing that if you wanted me knowing that would kill me?” I took my hand away pretending my hair was in my face. It felt like to much letting her hold me, she didn’t deserve it.

“She’s in pain Spencer I just want her to be ok with this” she says putting her head down