“What am I doing here?” I looked at Bette’s house and took a deep breath. I needed to tell Bette how I felt and that I still love her. BUT, what if she doesn’t feel the same about me? I knew that I put her through so much shit these last few months; I can’t stop thinking about her. I got out of my car and closed the door. I fixed my jacket and walked towards the front door. I began to think of things I can speak to her about, but I felt my head twirling around as I think of everything. I took a deep breath as I knocked on the door. I waited for a second, but I didn’t get an answer. I heard splashing from the back yard and walked away from the door. I walked around the house and towards the back. I stayed quiet as I hid behind the fence in the backyard.

            I felt like a stalker as I watched Bette and Jodi in the pool. She looks so happy with this woman. She looked the same way when we were together, but that—was the past. What have I done? Why did I let go of the best thing that ever happen to me in life? I made a HUGE mistake for leaving Bette for Henry. Henry’s a great guy and all, but he can’t compare with Bette. He just can’t do the things that Bette can do.  I stepped on a branch and take a step back. I held my breath as I watched Bette look my way.  Jodi signed to Bette, and Bette shook her head. I exhaled as I continued to watch the little escapade that went on in the pool. I closed my eyes and looked at the two women. I began to walk away, but I hit a flowerpot and knocked it over.

“Shit.” I muttered under my breath.

“Who’s back there?” Bette got out of the pool. I tried to run off, but my coat got snagged. I began to pull at my coat, but it was too late. “Tina?” I looked up at Bette with an edgy look on my face. “Wha—what are you doing back here?” She crossed her arms and stared at me.