LATER

“Ah baby I am sorry I lied to you. I am so sorry. I didn’t think you would let me in if you knew he sent me.” She kisses me softly, running her lips on chin, my face small little kisses so delicate yet so crushing. “I wish you could believe me and I know you can’t. I have given you no reason, but I love you Shane, and it would kill me if you never wanted to see me again.” More lies, “Those cuts on your back what are they really for?” She looks me in the eye, no blinking nothing hidden, “I told you it’s the price I pay. I never lied about that….” Such sweetness, “No you lied about everything else.”

I get up to leave.

“Shane please talks to me.”

“Alright let’s talk.”

“What did he say to you when he sent you over here?” I asked.

“He said I’m the bait. He said we need a winner make your self known to her. He said that you where staring, he said what’s the problem you like girls anyway right. He gave me a piece of paper and this was the address written on it.”

“And that’s it. He wants me to fuck you and join his crew and what betray mine?”

“He wants a meeting. He has your bike and wants to give it to you personally.”

That’s why Curt came by with the new burner he wanted to know where my line was drawn. Did he know about Carmen? Did he know about Havoc wanting to lure me to his side?”

“Talk me Shane, tell me what’s on you mind?”

“I want to believe the woman I love. I want to believe the people who have given me the life I am living. Yet all I think is how everyone I have ever known has lied to me. What do you think Carmen? Do you think I should betray everything for you? Do you think there’s a light at the end of the tunnel for us?”

“I don’t know Shane, I love you. It doesn’t make anything better; in fact…….it makes anything worse. You have to get your bike back right? You don’t have to lie to anyone about that. I’ll go and Mark can go, Havoc can’t do anything to you and Mark….. After that I don’t know.”

I’ll be fine.

I’ll be waiting patiently

Till you see the signs…..

TBC