„Unleash your imagination.“ My mother always used to say this to me when I was a little kid. „Unleash it, never hold it back, dare to be different and unique. Dare to be yourself.“ she always said that to me. But she never really meant it.

My mind still wanders back to where when I could run around and be myself. Something I can not be anymore. Little I knew that my imagination would lead me into this situation. But let´s get back to where it all started.

It was when I arrived back from my course in Paris. I didn´t know where to go so I just let the Taxi get me to Dana´s house. While driving there I listened to various messages on my voicemail. Nothing strange or so till I got the one from Alice. She was crying. „Lara, it´s Alice.“ Alice paused a moemnt „It´s about Dana.“ she started to sob „Lara, Dana is dead. Come back home. To her funeral.“ The message finished the second I arrived. It was 2:34 pm. I just grabbed my bag and just sat down on the stairs of Dana´s house. I still had the keys but I could not go into the house. It was so empty without her. Without Dana. I still loved her. As a friend or a sister but not as a lover. We were close that made it even worse. I was sitting on the stairs looking onto the ground. It was already dark when I saw her arriving. In Dana´s car, she would have liked that. I looked at her she only let me inside, saying nothing.I followed her inside, still saying nothing. We entered Dana´s living room. It looked like she left in a rush before she got to the hospital. I looked around and saw stuff all over the place like duts covered DVD´s, magazine´s from weeks ago. This was the moment I could not hold it back anymore. I started to cry, just cried because I had lost a really close friend. Alice stood beside me and started to cry to, she took me hand and held it. I turned around and let myself fall into her arms, cried onto her shoulder. I don´t know why, I don´t know how, but what I did next was a suprise for me too. Alice looked at me with tears in her eyes and I just kissed her. Just kissed her, right there in Dana´s living room and inst of saying anything I kissed her again and said „Baby“ to her. From there everything went blurry, I remember kissing her but what happened after that I can not remember at all. It was all too much.