– Are- are you sure?

– I’ve never been more sure of –and again, in that briefly moment, a flashback came to her head. She and Carmen after that long ago Nataly’s party, and she saying those same words to her. Shane finally began to realise what Carmen meant for her. And she for sure knew that was nothing good.

Prom night

All the girls were looking gorgeous. Jenny with her short light blue dress matching a beautiful pair of high heels, Alice wearing an enormus yellow dress, Dana all dressed in white with the touch of a yellow flower matching Alice’s dress, both Bette and Tina wearing white, and Carmen… Carmen wearing a tight red dress that accentuated her curves in every right way, and a pair of red stilettos that showed her killer legs. She had a body to die for and now, she knew it.

Shane was all dressed in black with the exception of the red tie she was wearing and was leaning against the ponch table though not drinking anything. She had her own whisky bottle with her. The prank was ready and the moment to put it in action was near but still the only thing she could do was watch Carmen. Carmen and her amazing dress and moves. Carmen spinning and irradiating light. Carmen in her all splendour. Carmen and Papi.

Shane would watch Papi touch Carmen and make her dance and again that thing  began burning inside her throat, but now with a whole new meaning: the mere idea of someone else touching Carmen drove her crazy and she couldn’t do anything about it. She could have had that and she blew it… she thought about blowing a line somewhere in the party and just forget what the sigh of Carmen made her feel, but no, the old drugs days were over and her only hope left was the whisky still worked.

The night went along and inspite the big amount of alcohol Shane had already drunk, her heart pounded into her chest. Territoriality, jealousy, repressed desire and a hint of rage made her head spin and her muscles tense. She remembered the first time those feelings started moving inside of her and what had happened that day. She remembered Carmen telling her she was going to a date later and her losing control. It had always been like that with Carmen and she couldn’t help it so why try now? Maybe things were meant to be like that and she would gladly take whatever she could from it, even if it was just having the chance to watch her since the latina had made pretty clear that she didn’t want anything to do with her.