I love you Alice. How many times do I have to tell you that I do not love her. That I only love you.

            I said it was not about her. God! Can you just stop thinking about her for once, and think of US!       

            Alice, if its not about her…then why are you leaving me? she swallows the last word. I can see the pain I am causing her. That kills me.

            Because you dont love me Dana. It hurts too much okay.

            I only love you, why dont you believe me. Me and her are only friends.

            It does not matter how many times you tell me. I know the truth. I see you two together. You still love her and she still loves you. I should not be holding you back from true love Dana. She pulls me into a hug. Its too damn hard to watch

            Whispering into my ear. Her hot breath sends shivers down my spine. How can you say she is my true love Alice? When I am here holding you, and not her. Telling you I love you, that she is just a friend.

            Like we were just friends I can feel her trying to catch my eyes, Just go be with you little chef, and let me go. I pull away from her.

            Thats a little harsh, Alice.     

            Yeah, well

            Why cant you see how much I love you?

            I know you love me Dana. I just can not sit back and wait for you to realize that you love Lara more. I won’t be that person you are with, just because you are waiting for Ms.Right to show up. I am not going to have my heart broken. At least we will still be friends.

            We will always be friends Alice. I am not waiting for Ms.Right, I have her right here. She places one hand on her heart and her other hand out to me.

            Not, if you leave me in a couple months for Lara.

            I would never leave you. She whispers to me.

            Can you promise me that? Why did you ask that? I look up, to see her staring at the floor.

            Please

            Listen, forget It. rubbing my head It was a stupid question.

            I would never leave youI love youI promise. Her hand still lingering out for me to grab.

            Do not make me promises that you can not keep. It does not matter what you say, I am still breaking up with you.          

            Is this what you really want Alice. she is no longer holding back the tears.  

            Yes. It hurts to lie to her.       

            I love you! Why do you not believe me? I have nothing to say, so stare at the floor. Look me in the eyes and tell me you want to break up. That you want to leave me.  

            Doing as she says, I bring my eyes to meet hers. I want to break up. she finally drops her hand. 

            But

            There is no changing my mind Dana. Its over! So please leave. I point to the door.

            But I love you, do I not get a say in this? I can hear her voice breaking, along with my heart. I do not want to cause her this much pain. I love her.

            No.

            I just do not understand.

            You will one day.      

            What if I say no?

            Its too late, Dana. So deal with it! Jesus Alice, what happened to being nice? Not causing her pain.

            Fine! I can hear her sobs; she walks away with tears in her eyes. I love you Alice, even if you can not seem to see it. I will always love you. Even if you broke my heart. She slams the door to my apartment. And she is gone.

            ***** I am finally left alone to cry. I am sorry The tears sting like an open wound on fire. I love you. Taking a drink from my glass, a mixture of scotch and tears. I am ready to drink away my sorrows. I wonder if you can place a band aide on a broken heart. Will that make it whole again? I mutter to myself.

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