Alice walked into Starbucks speaking on her cell. I just knew what was coming; she was going to give me a very hard time for not going out these past few weeks! Yeah, tell me about it. Ive been staying home and thrown myself into work. Because of the failure to have Tina? Nope not at all. In fact, Im over it! Or so I told myself!

Alice: Hey Porter whats up? Whats with the face?

Argh, I knew it!

Bette: Nothing, just work. Ive been trying to get this new artist but shes just been giving me a pretty hard time. One minute she wants me to do her show, the next, god knows!

Alice: Take a deep breath Bette! Come on relax will you?

Bette: Yeah I guess youre right. Anyway, I gotta go and try to get a hold of this person AGAIN!

Alice: Hey whats the name of this artist? I might be able to help out?

Bette: Urm its Amanda Hart.

Alice: Is she hot?

Bette: WHAT?!

Alice: Well you know, it would be more interesting to look for someone HOT!

Bette: Whatever Al. Ive only ever been on the phone with her; havent met her in person. Bye!

I couldnt actually be bothered to call Amanda. In fact, Ive only been trying to call her twice. I dont know what was wrong with me. Ever since I last saw Tina, I just wasnt myself. I stayed longer hours at the gallery; only to stare at my computer screen for hours. I wondered what went wrong cos I thought she felt the same way. I mean from the way she responded to the kiss! Who wouldve thought that Eric was more appealing than me! Well, I guess Alice wouldve!

God, Im so pathetic. Its been two weeks and Im still mopping about it. For all I know, Tina doesnt even care about all this, let alone me! She doesnt even know me enough to care for me. And whose fault was that? She didnt even give me a chance to explain myself nor did she give me a chance to show her how good things could be. And she didnt even give herself the chance to explore what we couldve had!

Come on Porter, this isnt like youRight, Im gonna go to Milk with the girls tonight and Im gonna have a good time. To ***** with Tina, if she doesnt want me then its her lost!

I dressed the usual me, all *****, all sultry and all wonderful. Checked myself in the mirror, yeah Porter, you look god damn hot! Youre gonna turn heads at Milk. I laugh at myself, I always turn heads! Who am I kidding! Man I feel giddy already!

The atmosphere at Milk was the same as usual; the moment I stepped in I knew Id have someone by my side asking if I were alone. I said well see. I just wanted to go fishing in the pond to see whats out there. Take my time to find the treasure, well the only treasure anyone could find here tonight is me. I smiled to myself. I ordered my usual drink. Im not much of a drinker but tonight is like a celebration. Its like a coming out party; you have every pair of eyes on you wondering if youre it.

I remember the first time I came to a ***** bar. There were countless women checking me out; I mean COUNTLESS. My thoughts were interrupted by Alice.

Alice: Hey there Bette. Glad to see youre out of the pothole for once. See anything you like?

Bette: Hey Al, Shane and Dana. Nah just the usual, taking my time.

Shane: Im so so glad youre back bette. Heres a toast for you.

Everyone lifted their glasses in a toast. God Ive missed this. And then there she was, Tess, the hot blonde babe dancing on the dance floor. My my, shes the lucky one tonight! I took a last swig of my Martini.

Bette: Ok guys, I gotta go, someones feeling lucky tonight!

Alice: God, shes only had one glass to drink and already shes drunk!

I danced my way to Tess, smiling all the way. Tess turned and saw my approaching. She smiled and put her arms around me.

Tess: So where have you been Bette? Ive been looking all over for you!

Bette: Im here now arent I?

The music stopped and another one played. We danced to another five songs before we called it a night. Then it was back to my apartment. I didnt know how I got home but all I know is that Im thankful for Tess; Tess has helped me get my mind off Tina and stopped myself from feeling the pain in my chest that Ive walked around with the past two weeks! After our making love, I dont really know if you can call it that since love was never involved when I sleep with anyone, my fatigue body gave in to slumber and she yet again appeared in my dreams like she always has ever since I laid eyes on her at the gallery…