As she stood there eyes focused on me, I wondered what she was thinking. Maybe she thought I was crazy to come unannounced, or maybe she thought I was out of my mind going to the gallery past opening hours or maybe behind those beautiful eyes she knew I was coming. I looked at her remembering how those lips had touched mine and sent shivers down my spine; not from fear but from how it has forced this one feeling that I had been suppressing all my life to surface.

Bettes friend: Hello can I help you?

I forgot someone else was there. The sight of Bette was just so captivating I forgot where I was.

Tina: Umm Hi. Im Tina. I was just swinging by to see if Bette was here but I guess I came at the wrong time. (Duh obviously its very very late for someone to still be working!) Sorry. Ill see you some other time Bette.

I was half wishing shed say STOP, or WAIT, or even more hopeful for her to say, PLEASE DONT GO!

Bettes friend: Oh hmm… ok. Bette?

Bette was still looking at me. I wish shed said something. I waited for a minute to see if shed snap out of it but she didnt. She just kept looking at me.

Bettes friend: Sorry Im Alexis. Im just gonna take Bette home now. Im so sorry. Maybe you can come by again tomorrow during the day?

Shes going to take Bette home? Who is she? Is she some kind of girlfriend? Bettes girlfriend? And what the ***** is wrong with Bette? I looked at her not believing my eyes.

Tina: Im sorry Alexis. Id better go and come over again when shes ok. I didnt know anyone was here I was just trying my luck. It was nice meeting you.

As I turned around I noticed Bettes mouth moved. I looked at her again. But all I could see was her attempt to say something and she closed her mouth soon after I caught her move. I sighed heavily. What was wrong with Bette? And most importantly what was wrong with me? Why the ***** did I come over? And what was I thinking? Did I expect Bette to fall to her knees wanting me? I rejected her once I doubt shes the kind to give second chances! I mean god look at her, shes so beautiful she probably could have anyone she wanted, male or female!

I walked to my car feeling more confused. Did I want Bette? Did I want to live like this? Turn my life into a new lifestyle? It had never occurred to me this was possible; for me to be so attracted to a woman. And is it ever possible for me to run to a woman when I broke up with my boyfriend just a few hours ago? How fast should the transition be? Is this normal? I looked back to where Bette and Alexis were. Alexis was saying something to Bette and all she did was nod to whatever Alexis was saying. Was she going out with her when she kissed me? Are they a couple? Was Bette a cheater? So many questions need to be answered and theres only one person who can give me answers.

I shook my head unsure of what to do next. I drove back to my apartment feeling empty. I dont know who to turn to; Eric is out of my life and my friends? None of my friends are ***** and I doubt theyd understand. That night, I slept in my bed, all alone only to be accompanied by thoughts of Bette