Bette, I was so hurt that you weren’t there by my side because of your work and traffic. I was so angry with you but my heart hurt so much worse. I felt so much grief pouring out of me that that took precedence over my anger towards you. I know I pushed you away because of the anger. I was tired of taking second place in your life to your work.”

“I apologize for being so ignorant and stubborn in thinking that my world was so much more important then you and your world. I have learned quite a bit in almost losing you. I don’t want to be the ‘me’ I’ve been in the past as I realize that it truly wasn’t profitable to me in so many ways, but the most important reason being that I almost lost you.

I can’t see my life not including you in any way, so I think its time that maybe I talk to someone to figure out how to be a better partner for you. I want to make some changes in me to be better in this relationship. I know I need to process this miscarriage stuff on the emotional level so that I can let it go and be healthy again. I know that we need to grieve it together but I’m not sure how to do that.”

“Then, let’s do this together with a counselor. I’m not quite sure how to do it together either. Do you want to see Dan Foxworthy about this?” Tina said to her as she moved up and kissed Bette’s cheek and then caressed it with her hand, leaving it there for a moment.

“No, I don’t think that I’d like to process it with him. I’d rather talk to a woman about this. I’ll call Dr. Wilson and see if she knows of any women grief therapists.” Bette smiled with this moment in feeling comfortable in being able to talk to her wife again. She kissed Tina’s head and left her lips there for a moment. “I’m so grateful for getting my head out of that very dark space in time before I really did something stupid and lost you forever.”

“I’m grateful for you organizing this trip here for us. Babe, you’re not the only guilty party here. Shutting you out and not talking to you isn’t exactly the adult thing to do in this situation. We made a commitment to one another and I want to get back to that place of being family with you, of being the best partner to you that I can be. We both have to work harder to be better in this relationship with each other.” Tina shared with a bit of emotion in her voice.

Bette moved so that she was more on her side and Tina was lying under her. She looked deeply in to her eyes and said to her as she tenderly caressed her cheeks, “You’re absolutely right, we both have to do a better job of working together to have the best relationship that we can have. I love you like no other and so want to get back to that place of depth to our love like we should be in… I want to date you again to bring the fun back into our relationship and to be able to love you the best that I can by putting you back at the number one spot on my priority list.

Bette then shared a tender kiss with her wife as she caressed her cheek with her hand. Tina responded by pulling Bette back into her and kissing her deeper. Soon, their tongues were doing the dance again and neither one could stop the kissing as the need for intimacy was there again and the hot, sensuous passions were making themselves known…