“Are you sure this is what you want?” all I can think of is how bad it hurt when she left, how it feels to be with her again.

“Yeah, I mean I would’ve loved to be married to her but… I just want to be with her.” her smile, the way she played with her keys on our date.

“Well then…you and Chane are getting married.” what the fuck!

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Sitting at the back porch drinking a beer and helping take the green leafs off the corn. Thank god for beer.

“Hey, I want to talk to you.” shit he is big, maybe that whole pitch fork thing wasn’t true…he probably has a gun instead.

“Carlos leaves her alone, she’s ok.” thank you Evie, you really way to nice.

“I just want to talk.” take the beer and talk to him worse case you can throw your beer at him and run.

“Yeah ok,” fuck swallow just breathe and scream if you have to.

He walks in front of me, and before I know it we’re by his car. Shit he has a cool car…its red.

“Look about that whole beating you up thing-.”

“Hey no it’s ok I…I deserved that…I’m not going to hurt her again. I made a mistake and for some reason she forgave me,” trying to say everything I can before he knocks me out. “I love her more than you’ll ever know. She’s-”

“Look I’m not going to beat you up. I just wanted to say sorry…she’s like my little sister you know.” so he isn’t going to punch me? “She’s happy with you; I haven’t seen her like this for years. Not even with that slut Jess.”

Wait what did he say about the bitch?

“What?” he didn’t like her…why does that scare me even more?

“She was a little bitch…there was just something about the way she acted that pissed me off.” god the last time we actually talked was the Sunday she came out. Fuck even then all he talked about was this stupid car…actually it’s really cool. “Just don’t hurt her okay?”

Thinking of what to say, of what the fuck is happening. I take a deep drink from my beer draining it within seconds.