Can Love Conquer All?

There sat Bette at the foot of the bed she once shared with her wife, with her face buried in to her hands crying uncontrollably, holding Tinas wedding band in her fingers, thinking about what she did to ruin and lose the best thing she had in her life.

Bette: Oh my god what have I done? Bette says to herself.

She was still in her black Jil Sander slats and bra from when Tina confronted her about the affair. Its been about 2 hours since Tina walked out on her . Bettes mind starts to replay the moments from the previous hours

A minute or two after Bette and Tinas big fight.

After Tina collapsed in to Bette arms and cried into her wifes embrace. She felt so empty. So filled with nothing. What was there to gain from her actions towards Bette? Maybe to herself she thought that it would make her feel close to Bette, since she felt so far away. It didnt fulfill anything. Once Tina rolled off of Bettes exhausted and trembling body. She lied there with her back to Bette. Tina couldnt even look at her. Bette laying right next to her looking at the ceiling with tears falling from her eyes saying nothing. Even though Bette said nothing her mind was being filled with all kind of thoughts. What did I just do? It was the most horrible thing I could ever do to the person I love, I know I love, I dont want to hurt her so why did I do it anyway? Bette didnt know what to say or do to show Tina that she was sincerely sorry. That she would give anything and everything to take it all back. But no matter what she did, there was no taking this back. Both women lying there in silence and in pain. Tina waiting for Bette to explain, when she realized that Bette wasnt going explain anything. Tina sat up on the beds edge and was headed toward the dresser to get some cloths. Still wearing the dress, well half a dress that Bette ripped half way off of her body. The look on her face was filled with no emotion what so ever. Even though her face didnt show it, her heart was pounding nothing but hurt, lose and pain. As Tina removes herself from the bed. Bette feels the movement next to her and sits up herself and comes right behind Tina standing at the dresser.

Bette: T? Im so sorry baby.. Please.

Tina whips around at the moment she hears Bette call her baby.

Tina: Dont call me that. I am not your baby because if I were, you wouldnt have done what you did.
I was your baby but not anymore, it has no meaning to me now

Even though those words were went to hurt Bette, they still hurt Tina when they escaped from her mouth. Tears starting to form in her eyes again. Tina turned around back towards the dresser so that Bette couldnt see her tears fall. Tina starts walking toward the bathroom to get changed. But before she got to the doorway. Bette grabbed Tinas arm and turned her around so they were face to face. Tina turned around without a struggle but made sure not to look into Bettes eyes. Those deep brown eyes the most beautiful eyes Tina had ever seen, no matter how much hurt and anger she felt, Bettes eyes always made her weak and she almost always melted when she looked straight into them. So not the feel that weakness, she just focused on the floor below her. She wanted to hear what Bette had to say. She wanted a explanation. She wanted to know why and how the affair happened. Tina seemed not interested in what Bette had to say, But that couldnt be farther from the truth.

When Tina didnt look into her eyes. Bette felt a streak of pain go through her heart. She cant even look at me who could blame her.

Bette: Bab. T. I love you so much. You have to believe me that you are my heart. You are my everything. I am so S O R R Y.

As those words came out from Bettes lips. She broke down and fell to her knees and held Tinas hips and legs in her arms.

Bette: I. dont know why it happened.. Please.. I want yoouuu. Please. Only you Tee. It was never planned. I dont know why it happened Pleeease I..

She started crying so hard that she couldnt finished her pled. Tina looked at Bette break down. It hurt her so much to see the love of her life hurt. But that was Tina that was her heart it was nothing but pure love, she always referred to Bette and herself as one. As she lifted her hand to place it on top on Bettes head to comfort her. Something triggered her mind not to. Tina thought to herself What! What am I doing, she was the one that cheated on me. Why do I feel like I have to comfort her, Why am I so weak. She was the one that didnt care about me and my feelings. SHE CHEATED! Tina came to her senses and stepped back from Bettes grip. As Tina stepped back. Bettes body fell toward the floor but she caught herself before she hit the floor completely. Bette lifted her head to look at Tina.

Tinas formally Expressionless face now was beet red with anger. Looking at Bette down on the floor.

Tina: YOU DONT KNOW? she yelled There has to be a ***** reason to cheat Bette! If it was planned or not!. Was it me? Im I not enough for you? .

Tina tried to calm herself down before she started to get out of control again.

Tina: I want to know . Is she the only one that you cheated with? Tears starting to fall again. or are there more of them? Putting her hands up in the air as to say she gave up. You know what! It doesnt matter, I dont think I can hurt anymore then I am right now.

Bette wiped her tears from her own eyes and stood up from the floor and looked Tina right in the eyes. Bettes eyes were filled with so much pain, the same pain Tina felt in her heart.

Bette: Tina I swear to you that there are no more. with a expression of pain on her face She was the only one.

Tina couldnt hear anymore. She could no longer trust Bette. Just the thought of Bettes mouth and hands on that *****. The same mouth and hands that gave her pleasure for 7 years that were vowed to be just hers. Just to think about Bette touching and kissing someone else, made her sick to her stomach. With those thoughts in Tinas head. She looked at her left hand and at her wedding band. She took her ring off looked at it once more This doesnt mean anything to her and it cant mean nothing to me if she doesnt care. COMMITMENT. What commitment. She then stepped toward Bette and forcing her ring into Bettes hand.

Tina: Trying to hold back tears. Well I guess if she was worth ruining our relationship. I guess she is worth giving this to

Tina headed toward the bathroom with clothes in hand. Behind closed doors Tina dressed in record time and left the bathroom, walking toward the front door. Bette was still in the bedroom with Tinas ring in her hand. Shocked with what Tina told her. She couldnt move. The thought of losing Tina and living without her wife made her freeze in place. As she heard Tina walk out of the bathroom and head toward front door, all she could do was scream in the most painful voice.

Bette: TIIIINNNNAAA!!!!

Tina turned around to hear the cry of pain and regret. But just turned back toward the door and walked out of her home and out on her unfaithful wife.

Back to Bette on the edge of the bed

As Bette remembers the sound of the door closing behind Tina, when she left. A small chill went down her spine. With thoughts going over and over in her head, how much she loves Tina and how she considers Tina her life, she cant believe she did what she did or why it happened. All she knows is that she cant live with out Tina, She dont want to imagine life with out her. As those thoughts continue to fill her mind.

Bette: To herself I dont want Candace.. She is nothing compare to my T.

then the thoughts start forming in her mind on why she cheated in the first place. How did she let herself become so weak around Candace? Why couldnt she fight that temptation or why was there a temptation there when she had a loving and caring wife at home?

If no one compares to her why did I choose to cheat on her? Then trying to change it so she wasnt to blame I wasnt the one that made the first move. Candace kissed me, but yet she did tell me to tell her not too, if I didnt want her to. Why didnt I just tell her to leave? Bette hated herself because of what she did, But what made her hate herself even more was that she aloud herself to become weak. It wasnt acceptable for Bette Porter to be weak .

With all these thoughts going through Bettes head, She started to sob once again. Bette needed to figure out why she did what she did before she could go after Tina to start mending her heart. Bette was determined to figure out an explanation for her actions. She was determined to get Tina back. Her life depended on it.


TBC