Bette pauses again as though she is collecting her thoughts:

Shane, listen up, this is for you. I know that you have taken the breakup between Tina and I extremely hard. You always looked up to us and was given hope that love does exist. Please dont give up on that hope. Love does exist. I was just foolish and let it slip away. What Tina and I had was the real thing and if you are lucky enough to come across a love like ours cherish it and dont ever take it for granted. It doesnt have to end the way ours did if you just take the time to communicate with each other. Let each other in on both the good and the bad. Dont make the same mistakes I did and shut out the woman you love. If I had just opened up to Tina with my fears and insecurities I know in my heart that we would still be together. Someday you will find someone Shane, just dont be afraid to let them in.

Shane quickly wipes her eyes as tears flow down Tinas cheeks. Bette takes another pause and begins again:

Dana, You were another one that always looked at Tina and I as having the best relationship. Dont get caught up in that illusion. Nothing is perfect. It takes two people, a lot of love and a lot of give and take to sustain a relationship. I did to much taking and not enough giving. I can see that now. It really is true that you dont know what you have until its gone. Real love will hit you like a ton of bricks. You will know it when it happens. She will be all you can think about. She will be your first thought when you wake up, your last thought before you fall asleep. When you are not with her, you will wonder what she is doing. You will find yourself daydreaming about her, her beautiful smile, her loving voice. You wont be able to get her out of your mind. And when it happens, hold on tight, because if you let true love slip away the pain is unbearable. Trust me on this, I know.

There is another obvious pause in the tape at which time Tina asks Alice to stop the tape for a moment.

Tina: I just need a moment guys.

She gets up and goes to the bathroom. Everyone else just sits quietly trying to take all of this in. They are all on overload as they have never seen this side of Bette and they wonder where this is all heading. They all know this must be extremely hard for Tina, so they patiently wait for her to get back. Time seems to stand still. Tina finally comes back in and apologizes for the delay. Everyone quickly tells her there is no need to apologize. They all get settled and Alice once again starts the tape. Bette returns with red, swollen eyes and continues:

Al, my dearest friend. I know this has been particularly hard on you getting caught up in the middle of Tina and I and I am sorry for treating you so harshly. It just really hurt to have you take Tinas side, which is the way I saw things at first. Your words cut deep, but only because they were true. I am glad you were there for Tina when I broke her heart. I just wish I new how to repair it. Thank you for being my friend over the years and putting up with all of my bullshit. I know I have been cold towards you the past few months and I will be forever sorry for that. You didnt deserve the brunt of my frustration. I guess you were just the lucky one that I felt safe enough to unload on. I will never be able to thank you enough for being there for Tina. I dont know how you managed to stay strong for her and watch my downward spiral unfold at the same time. I hope you will one day be able to forgive me for all the hurtful things I said to you. At the time, I just wanted someone else to hurt as much as I was and you seemed to be the most readily available target. Thank you for getting Tina through this. Until I lost Tina, I had never felt such pain and regret. Even though it kills me to see her move on, I do want her to be happy. She deserves that and so much more. And Al, dont ever change, youre one in a million. You too will find that special someone to share your life with, as no one is more deserving than you. And if they dont treat you right, then you know what to tell them.

With tears in her eyes Alice smiles as she knows Bette is referring to the step off ***** conversation they all had with her about Gabby. Everyone else smiles for a moment too, as they think back to happier times. Bette pauses again and continues:

Okay Sis, now for you. I know I have been really hard on you Kit and as repetitive as it sounds, I am truly sorry. I have always been proud to have you as my sister, even though I failed tremendously at showing it. Once again I allowed hurt to be an excuse to strike out at you when the opportunity arose. But you took it like a trooper. Even though I would piss you off immensely at times, you never gave up on me and was always there when I needed you. I regret not opening up to you with the way that I was feeling when you tried to talk to me about having the daddy blues. That was just part of what I was struggling with internally. If I had just had the courage to talk to you then, maybe you could have gotten it through my thick skull to open up and share with Tina before I allowed this train wreck to happen. I am sorry that I didnt reach out to you more while going through all of the fallout with Tina. I was just afraid you would judge me and my fall from morality . Quite the laugh, huh? Since I was the only one that seemed to dish out judgment, holding everyone up to my high standards. I guess is serves me right that I couldnt hold myself up to them. I am glad you got the Planet and things are going well for you. Just know that I am and always will be very proud of you Kit and I love you very much.

I guess I will wait to address Tina until the end, as I am sure she didnt wish to join you all. And that is okay. I understand her hate towards me, especially after finding out that she is pregnant. I destroyed everything that meant anything to me. I fucked things up so badly, that I will miss out on raising our daughter with the only person I will ever love. And yes, I will forever see her as my daughter even though Tina doesnt want me to be a part of their lives. I guess I had always hoped that if I just gave her more time that she would eventually get past the anger and hurt and forgive me. After all this is Tina we are talking about, kind, gentle, loving and forgiving T. I guess I lost the right to have those feelings directed towards me anymore. The depth of her hatred finally hit me when I was realized she had kept the pregnancy from me. I dont think I will ever be able to forgive myself for the pain I have caused her. I guess my penance is watching her move on and be happy without me. I thought nothing would ever be more heartbreaking than that, but then to find out that she was carrying our child and never bothered to let me knowwell words cant express what that did to me.

Bette pauses again as tears run down her face. She doesnt pause the tape this time as her tears run freely. She finally wipes her eyes and continues:

I dont know where I go from here guys, but I know that I cant stay here and watch the love of my life share my little girl with someone else. I just dont have the strength to watch someone live out what should have been my life, my family. I just wanted you all to know that I love you all very much and I am expecting you to continue to take very good care of both my girls for me.

Okay Al, this next part is for T. I hope one day that she will be willing to watch it. I dont care if you guys watch it. That is up to each of you. Just promise to keep this until Tina finds it in her heart to be able to watch it. I am forever indebted to you Al. Bette once again pauses and regroups: