I nervously paced the living room, unsure as to why I couldn’t get this anxious feeling out of my system. Well I guess I knew why, but deep down inside I wanted to ignore the reason. I glanced at the clock, it was a quarter to 9all right I realized I had 15 minutes before Alice would be here.

I sat down on the couch and began to fidget. What the ***** is wrong with me. I’m just going out with Alice what’s the big deal. Well I guess the more I think about it I know why I’m acting this way. I’m secretly going to a ***** bar for the first time. Well I’m not ***** or at least I don’t think I am, but why the nervousness about me going with Alice. Maybe it’s because I don’t want Eric to find out…but even if he did he would just assume it was because of Alice’s recent break-up, so then why all the secrecy. Why didn’t I want to be honest with him? He knew Alice was a ***** so us going to her type of bar wouldn’t necessarily bother him. No come to think of it, it would probably turn him on.

At this point in time I realized I was simply just fooling myself, or at least trying to. I realized at that second I was so anxious because maybe I wanted to be adventurous this evening. It was then I finally came to my senses and figured out that it was I who pressured Alice so badly to head out tonight despite her moping and wanting to stay at home, and it was me who convinced her to go to this particular bar so she can take her mind off Gabby and possibly dull the pain with some liquor and possibly another girl. In that exact moment I realized I wasn’t doing that to be a good friend to her but rather because of some inner curiosity had gotten the better of me. I knew I couldn’t stand another night of hearing Alice complain how she screwed up and that this had to be the reason, I wanted something new, That would explain the nervousness.  Before my thoughts could go any further I heard a horn honk repeatedly. God damn Alice so impatient I thought to my self. Also good timing before I had the chance to back out due to this new revelation.

Hey Tina, turning 25 last month made you a grandma I see were the first words out of Alice’s mouth.

What the ***** are you talking about Alice I replied

I don’t know it took you about a year to walk to the car, figured it had to be the age.

Oh shut up it literally took me 30 seconds to come out here I can’t help it your so damn impatient.