“Spencer” I heard my dad call out from the kitchen, so I quickly released Ashley taking a step back.

“This isn’t goodbye just so you know either way if you’re here when I return or not we are going to talk this all out.”Ashley just responded with a nod as I turned to head into the kitchen.

As I made my way in to the kitchen I see my dad pacing slowly back and forth, he stopped as he became aware of my presence.

“So……”

“I think you have a lot of explain to do”

“Ok well where to start”

“How about why you where just in the living room kissing your suppose to be boyfriends sister on the couch. I don’t even think you understand how wrong that sentence even sounded Spencer.” My dad rattled off quickly starting off rather loudly then lowering his voice.

“I know dad but…..”

“No buts what are you even thinking Spencer? We talked about this before I left but I had no clue about the guy you where hinting around to, stupid me it’s not even a boy it’s a girl Aiden’s sister no less.”

“Dad I…”

“And when did you just up and decided to start liking girls huh, this is just so over the top of what I could have imagined. What would your mother think of this or your brother? Or better yet does Glen know about all of that” My dad stated pointing in the direction of the living room with a look of what I believe was disgust.  I could feel the silent tears rolling down my face.

“He doesn’t know” I whisper out

“I don’t even know what to say or even think for that matter. Spencer this is just so not like you, I’m disappointed in your actions right now.”

“Daddy please just let me explain, I….”

“Just go to your room I need some time to think this all over” he states resting over the counter top with his face in his hands.

It felt like I had just been kick in my  chest , I’m pretty sure I lost my voice along with my heart on the kitchen floor. I was defiantly not excepting that sort of reaction; I quickly turned and rushed out the kitchen door holding back my sobs. As if I couldn’t feel any worse, as I reenter the living room it was empty Ashley had left and my heart hurt even more. I felt so stupid of course she wouldn’t have stayed, she said she wouldn’t but that didn’t stop me from keeping just a little bit of hope that she would have been there.