madisions pov

its been a couple of months since me and spencer had that talk we talked more on a serious level i know she didnt want to she just wanted a drama free night but it needed to be done.

we talked about us and whats going on,and i learned alot and i felt realy bad that she was hurting in more ways then one and i can honestly say i havnt layed a finger on her.sometimes i snap im not going to lie but i havnt it her once.

i asked her about the eating and she swore it was  nothing but i wasnt about to let it go we had an argument and she finaly told me the truth.

she said that she hasnt been eating becouse she thought i wanted her to lose weight,to say i felt awful would be an understatment we had a long talk about that and it was a lot of crying from both of us but we got through it and now shes actualy back to her self she actualy looks better more curvy i like it.

but even though we had that talk something still isnt right.nothing huge but it dosnt seem right,our sex life…well ..it…honestly its lacking,we do still have sex but when we do its like shes not even there,when i asked her she said it was nothing.i started thinking its me and talked to her about it,it was hard asking if i was doing enough for her like i felt embaressed,but she said it wasnt me that i was great she just had alot on her mind an apoligized.i still didnt beleive her but i couldnt ask again,we have sex about 2 to 3 times a week if we can make it.im still kinda brushing it off becouse she seems happy and when i look at her she has this glow and it makes me happy to see her happy.

things between ashley have gotten better she stoped acting like she was trying to win spencer back and like a freind me and her are trying to be freinds we can just about tolorate eachother now which is better than befroe,they spend time together like bestfreinds and im still not trusting ashley but i trust spencer and i trust her when she says that nothing is going on.