"Hi, lady are you o.k.?" someone asked waking her up

"Where? what…" Spencer was still a bit out of it.

"Do you need help?" the stranger asked.

"Ashley?" the blond asked hoping

"No sweetie I’m not. Here let me help you…" now Spencer could see it was a woman who helped her. She got up and left the place feeling like her world had ended ‘I was… I was raped…’ she fearfully explained to herself. ‘God Ashley where are you. I need you so much!’ she was about to go to Ashley’s house but then she remembered. ‘Oh god… no I can’t, I can’t ever tell her…’ she felt helpless and alone as she made her way home. 

Present:

"Oh god baby, why didn’t you come to me why?" Ashley asked as tears were drooping from her eyes after her girlfriend story.

"I didn’t, I’m not…" Spencer tried to explain but couldn’t she was crying so hard.

"It’s o.k. now. Shhhh it’s all right shhh" the dark haired girl embraced her weeping lover. "It doesn’t matter anymore you are here with me I love you so much."

After awhile the blond girl suddenly started kissing Ashleys’ neck passionately

"I want to make love to you" she whispered.

First Ashley was lost in the moment but then she understood what was happening as Spencer lay on top of her tearing her shirt open.

"No. Spencer stop." She rose up holding both of Spencers hands in her own. Spencer was still kissing her chin ‘I wont let her do this’ the older one thought.

"Spencer baby. Hold oh." She pulled away. "I don’t want to. Please let me love you please. I need to know that I still can…" Spencer was desperate.

"No baby. Don’t use sex as an escape don’t do as I did… you don’t have to run anymore I’m here with you just let it all out. Scream, cry, curse, but don’t use sex or me to escape from what you’re feeling it will only make it harder…" ‘Please don’t make it harder’ she added in her mind.

But as if the girl haven’t heard her she kept kissing her and Ashley was having a hard time resisting her touch ‘no don’t do this’ "Spencer look at me. Honey look at me" Ashley begged her. The blonds’ eyes were dark with arousal and red from the tears.

"Don’t do this it’s a mistake" she told her looking deep into her eyes.

"But I love you I want to make it go away" the young one said desperately "not like this Spence, not like this. I love you and we will be together but for now you need to face it. you were raped baby. Someone gave you drugs and violated you." Ashley was pushing now. "I know…" she replayed backing away. ‘I’m sorry I have to do this baby’ Ashley thought before continuing. "He touched you and pushed himself into you" Spencer looked at Ashley unbelieving. "STOP it" she said getting off the bed shakily and standing with her back to Ashley ‘why is she doing this? Why?’ Spencer asked in her mind. "He hurt you didn’t he? You can remember his smell?" Ashley stood behind her girlfriend. "YES. I CAN REMEMBER" Spencer screamed her back still turned ‘I know what I’m doing trust me’ Ashley begged with her mind. "If he was here what would you tell him?" Spencer turned around hitting Ashley’s chest with her arms "I HATE YOU!" Spencer screamed crying hard. "Why!? Why did you do this to me?" "That’s it let it out…let it go baby" Ashley took the hitting then hugged her girlfriend, who cried so hard "WHY" she asked for an answer. "I don’t know baby… I don’t know…" Ashley said. "I do know that you are strong and together we can get through this I promise you I’ll never leave you to face it alone…" as they both sat on the bed still crying in each others arms a strange feeling surged up and filed them both one they haven’t felt in a while. It was hope and they knew then that nothing could touch them and that eventually they will be o.k. for the love they had for each other was too strong.