Prologue

I wish I could say that this will be happy and full of laughter and joy. But if I said that, well, then I’d be lying. The truth is, this is not very happy, not at all. This will be sad, and make you want to cry from all the experiences taking place here.

There will be so much deep emotion that you will be able to feel it all as if it were your own. You will feel the sadness, anger, despair, but most of all, you will feel as if you have never truly been loved, and as if you will forever be alone.

But that’s how we’re supposed to feel throughout life, right? Our purpose, besides all the religious crap, is to find our true love and learn to survive if we end up alone. During this, all you will want to do is hide away from everyone who has already, or in the future, hurt you in someway, just like I am hiding away now.

So, like I said, I wish I could say that this will be happy, but I cannot because I will not lie anymore. This is my life, and how I am just a victim of love. My name is Ashley Davies, and I will not lie anymore; I am in love with Spencer Carlin, my best friend since 1st grade.

Chapter 1

How would you feel if the people who were supposed to know you the best actually knew nothing about who you really are? Would you feel hurt, angry, depressed? Well, I feel all those things. Families aren’t supposed to have to ask you questions like, “are you okay?” or, “What’s wrong?”, they should always know the answers to how you really feel. That’s what a family is, isn’t it?

And also, they’re supposed to love you unconditionally. But do you really feel like they do that? Or do you pretend they do, just to make you feel something more than heart-wrenching pain. It just keeps coming back, over and over and over again. Nothing will ever stop it because we are always meant to deal with this pain. It will follow us forever. No matter how much we try to get away from it, it will always hurt us.