So let’s see I have talked about how we met and how our relationship began. I guess it is time for me to talk about when things got serious and I couldn’t deal…..well not at first anyway:

After that day that we decided to finally get together things were great. Almost a little to great ya know, I didn’t really know how perfect was suppose to feel when it came to relationships but this must have been it because being with her finally was better then I could have ever dreamed up…it was crazy and for a minute I thought she might be crazy for wanting to be with someone like me and not want anything from me. Of course right away she had her rules about me not running around with the different girls in the clubs:

"I have been around you long enough to know how you like to use your free time and if this is going to work between us then we both have to make a few changes." she explained

"Yeah I know I know…but trust me you have nothing to worry about none of this other girls around here have anything on you," she smiles "but uh I know how flirtatious you can be as well so how bout you tone that down just a little bit?"

"Done..there is not need for that anymore now that I have you."

At that moment I knew that I would do everything in my power to make this girl happy but then we ran into a little problem one day after school.

Of course we were at my house just enjoying being in each others company which usually consist of making out. With me trying to do everything right this time I never tried to take things beyond the normal make out session so as soon as things got heated I would pull away but when I did it one day she got so pissd at me.

"Why do you always do that?!" she yelled

"Wow what’s the problem?"

"Ashley we have been together for what 2 months now and you haven’t even tried to go there with me…thats the problem…what’s up?"

"Nothing…I…I just I don’t want to rush things. I am not trying to treat you like all of the other girls that have come and gone in my life…and things usually end once we have gone there…I guess I am trying to make this last," she looks at me like she doesn’t believe me. "It’s not that I dont want you cause TRUST ME I do I just honest don’t know what to do after we go to that next level, no girl has ever been around for that long so it would be uncharted territory for me."

"I know what you mean but come on can’t you see how bad I want this. Sometimes it takes all of my self control not to jump all over you but if you are not ready then I guess I will have to respect that…..right?"

I smile

"Yeah I guess so," oh my god did I just say that for real…what the hell is wrong with me???  "All of you self control huh?

"Oh shut up!" she throws a pillow at my head and I throw one right back

"Oh yeah? you wanna pillow fight huh?" I get on top of her and just starts going at it but I guess my last shot was a little to hard because she stops fighting. I put my pillow down and see if she is ok.

"Are you alright?" she looks at me seriously and we both have become aware of our position. She clears her throat

"Yeah I’m fine, but if you really want me to respect your decision you should get off of me like now"

"What if I don’t want to? what if I’ve changed my mind?"

"Oh come on you can’t play with me like that."

"I know…..I’m sorry," I get off and just lay beside her  "I just keep having this internal battle my head is telling me know and my body is saying hell yeah!….but I promise you…you want have to wait much longer because just thinking about it is wearing me out."

"Ok Ashley I am not trying to rush you when the times comes I am sure we will both know when its right."

"Yeah….I guess I should get you home"

"Ok…"

As soon as I dropped her off I felt like crap I don’t  know whats going on with me we should done it a long time ago but like she said I guess when the moment comes we will noth know when it’s right…God I hope its soon…..

*Ok so thats that the next chapter is when it goes down…finally lol…feel free to leave comments tips or whatever*