“Spence, are you okay?”  I said in the most soothing voice I could find

            “Ya, (sniff) im im fine.”

            “No your not, you no I know you a whole lot damn better than that, now tell me.”

            “uh lets just go to lunch you can drill me then.”

            “Okay ill be there to pick you up in 20.”

Spencers P.O.V

            Aiden dropped me off after our long annoying trip home.  As we pulled up to my house he once again asked me when id be coming to move in with him.  I just told him id have to figure it out but id let him know.  I gave him a quick kiss and exited the car as fast as I could, I ran up to my room and fell onto my bed.  ‘When did I make such a mess of my life, why cant I just be who I want to be?’ It was then that I realized what i had done to myself and how much I am about to tear a life apart, why the hell did I say yes to Aiden, dammit, I have to tell Ash I have to tell her how I feel.  She can help, she will understand, that is if she doesn’t run away freaked out.  I couldn’t help but cry from the mess ive made, I just needed to talk to Ashley I need to now, I picked up my phone and dialed the number without looking and waiting to hear that voice I loved so much, that raspy, amazing voice.

“SPENCE!!!!”  I love that she is always so exciting to talk to me.

            “uh Ash, hey…”

            “Spence, are you okay?” 

            “Ya, (sniff) im im fine.”

“No your not, you no I Know you a whole lot dman better than that, now tell me.”  I knew I couldn’t hide anything from her, I just wish I could keep this one thing from her.

            “uh lets just go to lunch you can drill me then.” Hopefully Il be able to pull myself together in time I don’t want to seem so weak and hurt, im suppose to be happy, just got engaged remember.

            “Okay ill be there to pick you up in 20.”  She hung up without even saying goodbye.