Ashley in response ran up the stairs to her room locked the door and walked to her blinking phone on the bed. She picked it up in read 12 missed alerts, 11 calls and 1 voicemail message. Ashley pressed one, called her voicemail, typed in her pass code, and heard the broken voice of Spencer. Tears fell from her eyes as she heard the muffled words of the blonde blaring from her phone.

“Ashley…where are you? I…My mom…she…please just call me. I need you so bad right now.”

Ashley threw her phone against the wall and let her head fall into her hands.

“Why the hell am I so fucking stupid? Ugh!”

The pain that began to shoot through her was unbearable. She needed Spencer. Spencer was what made the devil on her shoulder disappear, but the creature was becoming visible again.

Ashley put her head into her hands as hot fresh tears fell down her cheeks. She began to shake her head as thoughts of ways to make her pain disperse flooded her mind. Sharp painless razors, bitter lovely alcohol, mind blowing meaningless sex. All of them she wanted, no, she needed. If Spencer, her drug, wasn’t around then she needed anything that’ll make her feel better. She fucked up and she knew that Spencer wouldn’t be around any time soon. She also knew that Spencer wouldn’t want to see or hear from her so what was the point in attempting to call or go by her house?

Quickly, Ashley changed out her wet clothes and ran down her stairs and to her car to rid of the flame burning in her chest. She couldn’t handle the pain and she was going to be free of it the only way she knew how, the ways that had worked for her so many times before.

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From her peripheral vision Spencer saw headlights coming closer and closer, but she stayed put. She couldn’t move. She was in too much pain. Her dad came running at her through the rain and kneeled in front of her. She didn’t look up into his caring eyes; she just collapsed into his arms and cried.

After a silenced ride with Spencer staring out the window the entire time had they finally arrived home. Right when the front door was opened Arthur’s cell phone rang. He answered with a ‘Hello’ and Spencer curiously looked at his facial expressions drastically change. His eyes had went from sympathetic to look as if he was about to cry, he had a look of worry and fear. It was then that Spencer stuttered the words, “What’s going on?” to her father. He closed his phone and quickly said, “Your mother.” And grabbed the keys he had just placed on the table beside the door and ran outside to his car with Spencer following behind.

–OMG!! Haha it’s been awhile aye. I’m sorry!! I’m going crazyyy with school AH! I actually care about my grades this year and am totally angry that my gpa is at a 3.85 : WAH! And I’m number 23 in my class. Argh. Anyways along with my terrible grades I have another fucking girl who’s obsessed with me and she enrages me because she texts me 24/7 because my idiotic friend gave her my number and the stupid girl won’t go away even though I’ve turned her down numerous times. Grr. Get a hint stupid face. I swear I’m the biggest douche bag to her and she’s still all "OMG you’re so amazing and hot and OMG I want you!!" Haha oh gosh women. AND!! I’ve been told that I’m going to hell and other shit from stupid bigots. Bitches. Did you know I hate people? Fucking ass munching bitches should get shot in the face. Can’t you tell my life’s been brilliant!! Fucking rainbows and sunshine every second of the damn day. Woo! But what about South of Nowhere?! Woo wooo! Friggen awesome! XD Hehehe. Anywayssss I don’t feeel like bumming you with my rather depressing chapter and now my depressing life haha so just leave a comment…or don’t. It’s up to you but know that I like the love. Mmmmwah my lovely people. I’ll post as soon as I can me promise. X Oh and warning…do NOT pole dance at school with hormonal boys around -shudders-