I was guilty even though I didnt do anything with Amy i could of prevent it after all I went through I knew that one drink would do that to me.. " okay Spencer I get it! It was my fault I should of known better what do you want me to do! what can I do for you to forgive me please baby I cant live without you" " umm lets see how about you build a time machine and change what you did last night or better yet build it and change all the times I gotten hurt by you!" tears were running down my face fully "Spencer please dont be like this you know I never meant to hurt you i love you seriously Spencer my heart is yours to fill or burst, to break or bury, or wear as jewelry, whichever you prefer just please Spencer dont do this baby" I could see tears coming down her face god I would do anything to stop them from falling..

 "Ashley what happen it showed me that we just arent meant to be for now and its just like life keeps getting in the way.. I.. I get my hopes up all the time and then I watch them fall everytime i admit it I cant live without you in my life and thats why I still want us to be friends please try to understand Ashley.. i love you and always will" and with that statement there was nothing else I could do. " I.. I understand Spencer thank you for letting me be in your life still please understand i will always love you and will never stop trying" that night i lost the love of my life but at least I had a friend.. a friend that I will always love..

Spencer’s POV

That whole night I had cried and though about everything life couldnt get harder huh? people just have ways to hurt you ways that you couldnt even imagine it sucks because you cant do nothing about it.. and when things are finally looking better yet again someone or something comes up and repeats the same process screw you over and over again it sucks but thats just how life is a bitch not fair right…

After Ashley left that night I knew I had made the right choice I wasnt going to deal with the fact she had screwed things up again yet I couldnt stay away from her I had to be close to her somehow.. I admit I did cry I wanted to just forgive her forget everything and just kiss her but then again life isnt that easy people dont just erase things like that feeling hard to get away from.. for now friendship is all that I have

continue or delete?