Ashley lowered her head and took my hand in her own. I could feel her fingers trembling in my hand as a tear fell down her face.

“Oh god…what is it? You have to tell me Ashley!” I screamed at her.

“I don’t know if I can Spencer.” She said squeezing my hand.

“Tell me Ashley…I have a right to know.”

“Glen is fine….Chelsea and the baby are safe…Kyla is alright also…” She paused and looked into my eyes and I could see the tears that were threatening to fall.

“Ok you mentioned Glen, Chelsea, Kyla and the baby…What about Clay?” I asked staring into her eyes.

She closed her eyes and my heart nearly exploded in my chest. I knew something was wrong something terribly wrong.

“What about Clay??? Tell me Ashley!!!” I yelled at her demanding an answer.

“Clay…” She choked back a sob and I knew right then what she was going to tell me.

I shook my head over and over wanting to just wake up from this bad dream. Wake up Spencer…Wake up!

“No…no…no…” I repeated over and over wanting to break something.

“I’m so sorry Spencer.” Ashley said in an almost whisper.

“Nooo…Nooo…You’re lying! You have to be lying! Life wouldn’t be this unfair…It’s a lie…Tell me it’s a lie!” I screamed into the room.

“Clay’s gone.”

“NOOO!!!” I screamed once more before everything went black.

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“It doesn’t work that way…alright? You can’t just cut off who you love…”

Who you love? Who you love? I knew Aiden had strong feelings still for Ashley but love? This wasn’t happening…this can’t be happening.

“You love?” I said back to him in disbelief. I turned my eyes to Ashley’s and felt the tears forming in my eyes as my body began to shake uncontrollably. “Oh please don’t do this…”

I couldn’t read Ashley’s expression but I knew that this was something that was not going to end well. Did she still love him? Did she ever love me?

“No…ok…just stop it.” I looked at Ashley anxiously as she let the frustration take over her. “Both of you…I decide who I love…”