“being with you just isn’t ever enough!” Spencer yelled at me then a silence fell and you heard her tears starting to break down

“what are we doing Spencer?” I asked her “this fighting…it shouldn’t be this hard…” I added

“I don’t know…” she told me sitting in the sand “…I love thinking that we’ll be together when we’re not, but we come so close to solving whatever this is…then it all just falls apart again…” she said bringing her knees to her chest

“the thing is…i want you, and I don’t want to be with anyone else…but this just seems to hard…” I told her starting to cry myself “…it just seems like something we can’t figure out…”

“so…what do we do?” she asked me

“what do you want to do?” I asked her

“I don’t know…what I want is different than what we need Ashley…”

“what do we need?”

“to really take a break…I mean, back to how things were sophomore year…”

“Spencer I don’t want things to be like that…”

“and I don’t either, but if we should be together…then we’ll come back to each other…”

“you’re making it seem like you’ll be out of my life…” I told her

“…I am leaving for college in less than four months Ashley…” she told me

“so what does that mean?”

“it means I’m probably going somewhere where you aren’t…” she told me then I let a silence fall

“I should get you home…” I told her then she drove home, and it was quiet with nothing said and music played softly

When we pulled up to her house she stopped right before she opened the door “…I know you’re probably thinking about a lot because I know I am…but um…I got into Ohio State…” she said then with the realization of how far she would be going all expression on my face dropped as she got out of the car and walked to her front door and I sat there

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Ohio…I can’t believe I’m going to my dream school, but I feel like with that school in my future…Ashley just doesn’t fit in it…maybe that’s why I’m so afraid to show her I’m in love with her again…