I wanted to scream, or cry, or cut, or even all of the above, just to release the pain and stress. I shook the thought and reapplied my smile.

The bell rang and I was out the door.

I noticed Spencer. I grinned and walked towards her.

“Hey Gorgeous, do you need a ride?” I leered at her.

She smiled at me.

“No sorry, I’m waiting for my girlfriend.”  She said.

“Oh is she a brunette about my size with gorgeous brown eyes, a nice ass and a killer smile?” I cockily asked.

She pondered before speaking.

“Nope, you must have the wrong girl.” she simply said and left.

I shook my head in disbelief. I couldn’t believe she left. What an ass!

I felt a hand on me and I turned around.

“You forgot to say with a hot blonde girlfriend.” She laughed and I rolled my eyes.

“Oh don’t be mad Ashy, I was kidding.” She mocked at me.

It finally clicked.

“You’re an ass!” She laughed even harder.

“Payback’s a bitch, and what you did to me was ten times as worse.” She said and got in the car.

“Spencer I need to tell you something.” The nervousness in my voice was apparent.

“Okay, um what’s up?” She asked.

How could I tell her I’m leaving and I unsure of when would be back?

“I’ll tell you when we get to your house.” I solemnly told her.

We didn’t talk the rest of the car drive. The music hummed in the distance, my mind was too wrapped up with different ways to tell her about the letter.

I could approach subtly,

Or possible I should address it straight forward

Or I could lie and not tell her.

I pulled into the drive way and got out. We made our way onto the couch.

Here goes.

I kissed her.

“Spencer I love you.” I said honestly.

She kissed me.

Her teeth gently nibbled on my bottom lip, god it felt good. Her tongue made its way to mine, deepening the kiss. I gave out a soft moan and wanted to stop but I couldn’t. I unzipped her pants and slowly took them off. My hand slipped under her panties; god she was so wet. I removed my hand and brought them to my lips. My hand started to wander again this time under her shirt, my lips crept down her neck stopping right above her shirt.

“I don’t think we will need this.” I smirked and pulled her shirt off.

“No wait, I need to tell you something.” I urgently said.

 “Can it wait, please?” She said. Her eyes pleaded with me, damn it.

“Yes.” I said.

God I fucked up again, I’m going to regret that.

She flipped me and unzipped my pants.

“I like this side of you Spencer.” I lowered my voice even more “It’s hot.” 

Suddenly she stops.

“Sorry I didn’t mean for this to happen.” She said.

What the hell? Is she talking to me? What does she mean she didn’t mean for this to happen? I’m pretty sure that she’s the one on top of me. Let me check, yep.

“Spencer it’s okay, I remember being a teenager to once.” He calmly said and then laughed.

Oh fuck me now.

“Hey Mr. Carlin, I’m really sorry about this. It’s my fault, she said no, but I kept bugging her about it.” I lied to him.

I didn’t believe this calm façade he had on.

My heart was pounding, I was scared for Spencer.

“Ashley I think you need to go, okay? She said keeping her voice composed. However her eyes were saying something differently.

What do I do?

“Okay Spencer, I’ll see you tomorrow at school bright and early.” I half shouted.

“Oh and once again I’m sorry about this Mr. Carlin.” I smiled and left.

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I got home, Raife still wasn’t home. It kind of scary being in the house alone, it made me nervous. I had no one here.

There wasn’t anything to do so I threw on some music and started my homework.

I must have fallen asleep because I heard a knock on the door. I looked at the clock, it was three in the morning. What the hell? Who would be here so early? I got to the door, and opened it.

I know I’m a bitch for leaving you hanging. My bad!! *Snickers*