So in our basement, we have a small place we play, Glen, Clay, my dad and me used to always jam, and just bullshit or talk. That night they got me to say out loud that I wanted Ashley to be my girlfriend, without me knowing that I actually asked her because those sneaky girls came down when they couldn’t find us anywhere with the help of my mother. They were listening to me vent out my frustrations on not knowing how to ask her. Me not knowing how to ask a girl was new to me, NO ONE made me flustered and nervous like this girl did.  So when she heard me pretending how to ask her with Clay, that sneaky bastard planned it because he had seen her at the steps with the rest of the girls. So that‘s how I ended up asking Ash to be my girlfriend. This finally brings up to date with my thoughts, to yesterday.

Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above

We got into our first fight, considering it was our first day as official girlfriends. She freaked out when I was showing affection to her during the day time. Which made wonder in my head , did she not want to be seen with me in public during the day , was I still a straight girl experiment  to her , and why would she not want to be seen with me during the day. That scared me and hurt me, because I actually had fallen head over heels for her. We were just singing and she freaked out bout those guys. God she didn’t even want me to hold her hand or her hold mine. It made me feel a heart ache and she made me realize if she had this effect on me, I wonder what would happen if things go wrong with me and her. I know I shouldn’t be thinking any of this but It was hard not to. It was so easy for her to just separate herself from me just like that. Then the dick came along , I can’t even remember his name and it was just yesterday, oooh okie  Jake , that was his name, he hit on her right in front of me and hit on me. OOH I was fuming, I was one step away from getting out my car and beating that shit eating grin on her smug face for hitting on her, me and bad mouthing poor Aiden, if anyone was to make fun of him it was to be me. Again thank god for Lisa for breaking the tension that had formed between Ashley and I , and not to mention Andie for stepping up and telling DICK I was with her, coz no my real girlfriend couldn’t grow the tits to admit it. Well they played musical bodies in the car, something we used to do when we were in Ohio messing around. It was basically moving bodies around in car from the Front seat to the back seat till everyone rotated. The thing was just it was during a moving vehicle. Oh the look of worry and shock that came on Ashley and Kyla’s face was priceless especially when I began to speed up.  Finally Kyla go into it too and pretended to be my girlfriend too as the rotation went about,  in short the ladies in my car just got to kiss me in front of my girlfriend which I thought was the funniest thing on earth. We finally got the beach house, I basically was still pissed off at Ashley, God I mean how can she do that to me completely deny that she was not with me, when a few hours before we were making out in my bed room and few hours before that she had agreed to be my girlfriend, it hurt a lot. She didn’t even realize how it hurt me because I did not let it on.  I stripped down into my bikini, grabbed my guitar but before that , I heard Madison say to my brother as Kyla finished talking to them “ Oh hell no they got to kiss Spencer, IM sorry Glen but I want a piece of that” So Madison Kissed me right on the lips, but from the corner of my eye I saw Ashley fuming with something dare I say jealousy. Then Chelsea kissed me. This was after they were all ogling me again when I stripped down into my skimpy bikini I swear those girls. Well when everyone was on the beach Ashley was with them I got up and asked Kyla if they had a piano or a music room, I remember them telling this was where their dad used to come and record some of the best stuff for Purple Venom , so Ky directed me to where it was without any questions, she is after all one of my best friends. She knew I had to let out some steam and music was my outlet. I finally found the room and started to play “Somebody” by Depeche Mode. It was one of my songs because if you actually listen to the words I WANTED THAT PERFECT SOMEBODY. Again Ashley popped up because she had followed me and listened to me playing the piano, and signing. I didn’t hear her because I had my iPod on playing along with the song.