Just then Iheard my phone go off again bringing me out of my thoughts.

[im sorry i shouldnt of asked. u dont have 2 answer]

Well I really don’t want to answer how can I explain it?  Will she understand that I am straight but this one girl is the exception but then again I feel different with her.  Its not the same thing as what I feel with Madison, oh my gosh thins is so freaking complicated!

[no ur fine i was just getting dressed sorry]

[oh ok gottcha. so?]

[yes]

[is it jess?]

Haha I had to laugh at that really hard.  There are two girls trying to get with Jess and they both think something is going on with us.  Its sad cause she lives in Texas and I’m in Cali.  It really cracks us up that people think that just cause we a;ways turn to each other to talk to and are always writing everyone else’s view novels to each other everyday.

[lol no thats really funny]

[oh sorry just kinda fig]

[ha no. well i guess since u trusted me enough 2 tell me i should have no prob telling u. its madison]

[oh]

[didnt c that coming?]

[no not at all]

[well thats good then. ky says it obvious]

[i dont think so. well im abt 2 head 2 bed aiden is putting me 2 sleep lol]

[wait is he there?]

[no on the phone w him u know i have 2 have my nightly talk r he will die]

[lol gottcha. have a goodnight]

[goodnight ]

Now I’m just laying in bed thinking about everything now.  I can’t believe I felt comfortable enough to tell her about Madison.  But she did tell me about her liking girls too so I kind of felt like I had to.  Hopefully we can both act like it never happened.

It’s been about three days since that last conversation with Ashley and neither one of us brought up that night.  I was pretty relieved about it to be honest.  Not because it would be awkward I wouldn’t let that happen I’m not that type of person but just because I hate talking about my feelings.  I’m a pretty reserve person I always tend to keep everything bottled up because I don’t want to bother my friends with my problems.  Plus most of my time is spent helping my friends with their problems so they never had time to hear mine.  So I found it best to keep inside until I couldn’t hold it anymore then I would just go off.  After my blow up things would be good to go so no point in talking before then.  I get knocked out of my thoughts when my drink order comes up.  Its a Saturday night and pretty busy since a band is playing.  It finally slowed down about one in the morning so I decided to take a seat, listen to the band, and check my phone.  I had a message from Ashley

[hey what u up 2?]

[nothing just work, u?]

[nothing just sitting at the apt watching a movie w aid]

[sounds like fun lol]

[oh u know it. so how r u?]

[good good u?]

[good. havent really talked 2 u since the other night. im sorry if i freaked u out]

[dude u didnt freak me out its no big deal. glad u trusted me enough 2 share that w me]

[i should say the same thing abt u]

[im always here if u need 2 talk abt nething i never judge and really open minded]

[good 2 know. soo umm could u tell i was interested]

Alright when I read that my heart kind of stopped I wonder what she meant by interested.  I can’t help but wonder if she meant me.

[interested?]