“I missed you too” she said

A few hours later we were sitting on her couch watching TV and Spencer had her head on my shoulder

“so…how come you never told me you had a roommate?” I asked her

“what? I told you…” she said

“no…I’m pretty sure you didn’t…” I said then she took her head off my shoulder and looked at me

“yes I did…I told you the first week you had softball practice which was the week I moved in here…”

“no…my first week of softball practice you told me you moved in…you said nothing about a roommate” I told her

“I don’t understand why this is such an issue right now” she claimed

“it’s just…I don’t get why you didn’t tell me”

“I told you! Oh my god Ashley…let it go” she said getting up and walking over to the fridge they had

“I’ll let it go…I’m just saying you didn’t tell me” I said then she slammed the fridge door

“why are you doing this?” she asked “are you jealous or something? I mean I think I made a point she was out with her boyfriend…” she told me

“Spencer I’m not jealous…” I told her

“then why are you being a pain in the ass about this?”

“so now I’m being a pain in the ass when all I did was ask why you didn’t tell me you had a roommate?” I asked her

“no…you’re being a pain in the ass because you’re handling this situation like we’re freshmen in high school…”

“freshmen in high school? You didn’t even know me freshmen year…you were too busy screwing girls at you’re little private school…” I snapped then I felt a punch in my gut…not by Spencer, but by myself for even thinking of saying that let alone saying it…she just glared at me

“you probably made a mistake by coming here…” she told me then she walked out of the room slamming the door behind her and I just punched a wall as hard a I could

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I can’t believe she just said that to me…she freaked out for no reason, and she was never like that before…I guess college really does change everyone whether you choose to believe it or not. So, I went outside of my dorms and sat on the steps when my friend Erin came walking up

“hey spence…” she said “…what’s wrong?” she asked sitting down next to me

“Ashley came back today…just for the weekend, but I dunno…she’s just…different” I told her

“what do you mean?” she asked

“just…it’s just she’s making issues of stupid things and wont let them go…she’s basically treating me like shit, but I mean she’s just stressed out from like softball and everything and the long trip right? I mean that could be it…”

“spence…how many times have we heard college changes people?” she asked me

“a lot…”

“yeah I hear everyday that I’m a different person…and since college is such a bigger world I think it lets us be the people we’re supposed to be because there’s no more clicks and everything to judge…” she told me “…maybe this is who Ashley’s been, and you just care too much about her to see it…” she said then I just looked straight ahead “…if this keeps up, then maybe you need to stop thinking about how you feel and think about what you deserve…”

“I don’t think I could go on without her though…” I said “…breaking off a two year relationship over a stupid fight…”

“no, I’m saying if the fights continue spence…you don’t deserve to put up with someone else’s shit…you’re too good for that” she told me “if you need to talk I’ll be around ok? just call”

“thanks E…” I told her then she walked away

What happened to us? When did our perfect world disappear and everything we lived just became a part of the past we will never live again? We just have to look into the future, but that’s a difficult thing to do when everything we do whether good or bad becomes something we cane never live again.

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