Spencer’s POV

“I need to go home.” Ashley tells me between sniffles.

We’ve been sitting in the middle of my bedroom floor for a good 30 minutes now, holding each other. She’s been crying into my shoulder, while I whisper soothing words into her ear. I want to make her pain go away but I’m not quite sure how to do that. So I hold her and tell her everything will be ok, and I want let anything happen to her. And I want. I think I’ll die first. I think this is a part of love. I love her.

I’m brought out of my thought when Ashley pulls out of my embrace to see my face.

“Thank You.” She says quietly looking into my eyes, while her hand caresses my cheek.

   “For what?”

“For being you, for pushing me to talk, not letting me run, for listening.” She doesn’t let me reply before she’s up on her feet pulling me along with her. “I really need to get home.” Then she starts making her way to my bedroom door. I’m following behind when she turns around and hugs me again. “Um why don’t you go to that party and I talk to you later on. You know my mom want mind if you come over later.” She says than kisses me on the cheek. 

“Ashley I don’t care about the party, I’m perfectly fine staying with you.” I say confused as to why she’s trying to get rid of me. I guess she read my mind.

“I know you are. And I’m not trying to ditch you or anything, I just need sometime alone.” She gives me a kiss on the lips. “Today was the first time I talk about what happen since my parents, and you’ve been more then great but I need some time to process this. I blocked it out for so long, I jus…” She looks away from me. I put a finger under her chin and make her look at me.

“I’m sorry. I’m acting like the clingy girlfriend. You need sometime alone I get that.” She smiles at me than gives me a kiss.

“Thanks for understanding and you’re not the clingy girlfriend. You’re the perfect girlfriend. My perfect girlfriend.” She gives me another kiss. “Walk me to my door.” I nod and walk her across the yard to her house. We kiss again and I promise to come over later.