After she had spoken those words to him one night while he held her close he had turned the word and her image over and over again in his mind. He realized then that he did love her, but he also wondered if it was a futile emotion. She was human. He was not.

Aro and Caius had brushed this off when they realized that his feelings for the girl were stronger than they had imagined. It was something that was easily remedied. All he had to do was turn the girl.

To him it was not that simple of a decision.

He knew that Aro was intrigued by Didyme’s gift and Caius just wanted to stop wasting time on such an insignificant thing as the fate of some human woman.

He was reluctant because he feared that part of her appeals was the fact that she was human. He doubted that his feelings were changed if she became a vampire, but he was worried that hers would. What if she was altered so much by the change that she no longer wanted to be at his side?

These doubts and the idea that she might hate him for changing her were what stopped him, though the fact that she was mortal also continued to torment him.

When he was not with her and she had to be with her fellow priests and priestesses, he worried about all the things that could happen to her. Rome had achieved some semblance of peace under the rule of this dictator Julius Caesar, but the city still had a dangerous underbelly where crime was present and people were killed at hurt. And, though many didn’t realize it, he could see the bonds between the dictator and those that he kept closest were not as strong as the dictator seemed to think. No, he had known that political upheaval was not far off in the future and that when Caesar’s allies turned on him that there would be many other lives lost, including those of civilians like Didyme.

He had tried to reason that she was safe. It was rather ironic that her position as a priestess to death would most likely keep her safe from it. No one wanted to court the anger of Pluto and bring death upon themselves after all.