School starts in a couple days, Im kind of timid whether or not i should give spencer an explanation for the way i took the shooting and Aidens confession. It’s like before i met her I was the bad ass got in trouble didn’t have a care what so ever. Than she came along and flipped my world upside down, gave life and love a new meaning. Spencer opened doors for me. Gave me a real look at love. How you feel passion but not mix it with lust. There was always a certain look in her eye, innocence. It’s like I was drawn to her. My feelings towards her have never been this strong. It’s like shes a midnight fix that i need, an addiction. I just cant seem to get her out of my head.

School is in. Great another place for ash to ignore me. 3 months of my life i was in brutal hell she was all i could think about. I ate,drink, and slept ashley davies. Cliche, I know but everything has to be sometime.  It took time but i learned to live without her. I learned i could be dependent on myself rather than others. The problem is I may love her but theres no way in hell im putting myself out there. It’s just another heartache. Im done with being innocent and wearing my heart on my sleeve. I gave up so much for her and she threw it away, she threw us away. For some jock strap who couldnt even face the facts that she wanted to be with someone else. Thats besides the point, Ashley was Ashley ya know.

One thing about her though was her eyes. Oh those eyes, they said it all. Filled with so much hatred yet they showed hidden love. She wasnt sure of love, she had lived life without love. So maybe I was just a a mistake a regret whatever you call it, i knew she felt something. The intensity we felt when our eyes would lock. When we held a gaze, it’s like time stopped and all you could hear was the sound of someones heart beat, a heart i thought beat for only me. So there you have it my love confession, my hidden obsession, with the one and only Ashley Davies. Our relationship wasn’t exactly a failure just a flop so friends ehh its a maybe.