It was the morning of the fourth day of the cruise, and Spencer was starting to feel that maybe, just maybe, things would turn out good for her for once. 

She had been on only one other cruise, two years before, to the West Caribbean.  The Carlins had stopped at a couple little islands and some place on the coast of Mexico.  It had been plenty fun, but Spencer couldn’t help but be disappointed with the way things had turned out during that trip.  She had been her usual shy self around all of the new people.  Sure she made friends to hang out with, but that wasn’t really the problem.  She had met someone, a boy actually, his name was Jacob. 

He was hispanic and very, very cute.  Spencer instantly had a crush on him from when they had first met.  She and Jacob had hung out basically the entire time they were on the ship, and she really liked him.  However, by the time she realized that she had more-than-friends feelings for him, he had already gotten together with another girl, and Spencer never had the guts to tell him how she felt.

She was never one to regret anything in her life, but she always did regret never telling Jacob that she liked him and being so shy.  She couldn’t help but wonder how differently things could have turned out if she had just let go of all of her fears and insecuritites, the regret wasn’t even really about Jacob after a while.  It became more about the nagging feeling that she wasn’t really living her life to the fullest, that instead she was just playing it safe and waiting for things to happen instead of making them happen. 

Going into this trip, the blonde had promised herself that things would be different this time.  She wasn’t going to be shy or hold anything back.  This was probably one of the only oppourtunities in her life where she could do anything or act however she wanted and not have to worry about the consequences or what people thought, because after these eight days she would never see any of them again.

This approach also applied to meeting somebody she liked.  She definitely was not going to let another great oppourtunity go by and wonder what if.  So even though the feelings about Ashley were completely confusing, since she never thought she was gay, she was no going to write anything off.  She always over-analyzed situations and in the end prevented herself from doing things that she wanted.  This week, however, she was not about to let that happen.  She was going to go after what she wanted, even if it made no sense.  No regrets.