Chapter Four

Why is it so hard for me to make a decision? Better yet to follow through with a decision. I have been staring at the phone for the past hour pushing myself to just pick up the phone and dial. I have even held the phone in my hand listening to the dial tone at one point. My finger hovered over the first number of Ashley’s number but never pressed down.

There was really no reason for my hesitation but yet it was still there. Maybe my fear was that we had grown so far apart that we may not be able to find that place we once knew back in high school. The physical attraction was still there but what about all the other elements that made us so good together so long ago.

The thoughts consumed my head and I pushed the phone away laying the card next to it. I made my way back to my bedroom and changed into my boxers and a wife beater. I pulled back the covers and slipped inside and stared at my ceiling. I kept replaying the kiss from earlier in my mind over and over. Her lips were so soft and they were just how I imagined they would feel and taste after all these years.

I groaned loudly and pulled the covers over my head and closed my eyes tightly.

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My eyes slowly opened as I heard my alarm clock sound. I pushed my face further into the pillows as I subconsciously tried to smell Spencer’s scent to no avail. The alarm kept blaring at me and I eventually slammed the button to shut it off. I rolled out of bed and stretched my arms out trying to get the blood flowing.

I made my way to my kitchen and started a pot of coffee which was my breakfast of champions. I headed back to my bedroom and pulled out a loose pair of jeans and a t-shirt for my morning errands. I slipped into the shower and let the warm water move down my face and body relaxing all my muscles.

The night had been a long one since I had spent most of the time waiting by the phone in the hopes that Spencer would call. I gave up around three in the morning and decided to hit the sheets to get some sleep. I had this slight fear that I had pushed her too far with that kiss yesterday but remembering how hard she had kissed me back I knew that she felt the same.